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Title/Chapter: Breaking Free (38/?)
Author: amanda: jaclyn's twin sister
Pairing: Zaylor Hanson, Zac/OFC: Andy
Rating: NC-17 over-all
Word Count: 1,907
Previous Chapters
P.O.V.: switches back and forth but is clearly marked.
Notes: AU-ish. No Natalie, Ezra, Ellie etc. And they still live in Tulsa. And the story starts in May 2003.
Summary: Breaking Free is a tale of two brothers who fall in love and the struggles to make it work. Can they make it last a lifetime? Or will the relationship crash and burn?

CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT
ZAC’s POV

The reception is just one big party, everyone having fun, including Taylor and myself. But then Taylor takes Jenna back to the hotel room to put her down for the night and I’m stuck at a table all by myself. Soon after he leaves though, Andy comes over and sits down next to me. “Hey, Monster,” she says. “Where’d Tay go?”

I scratch the back of my neck. “He went to put Jenna down. She was tired and cranky. Too much excitement and a late night,” I answer.

Andy nods. “So um, are you staying with Taylor tonight?” she asks.

I shake my head. “Naw, I got a room all to myself.”

She nods again. “That’s good. I talked to Aaron,” she says.

“Oh yeah? What’d he say?” I chew on my lower lip nervously.

“Well, he was pissy at first, and he still is, but he understands. He understands we need to work some things out,” she tells me. “So, we’re postponing the honeymoon and you and I are going to take some time together. We can do it alone or we can play house or do a little of both. Whatever you need. But we’re going to figure this out together. Okay?”

I smile in relief. “Are you sure?” Andy nods. I lean over and hug her tightly. “Thank you so much, Banana Face. This means a lot to me. I really need this.”

My best friend hugs me back just as tightly. “I think I need this too,” she murmurs. I pull back to look at her with a raised eyebrow. “We’ll talk later, okay?” I nod. “The reception’s almost over. I’ll meet you back at your room. Which one are you in?”

“Room 212,” I tell her, pulling a key card from my pocket. “I got two just in case.” She smiles, taking the credit card size piece of plastic from me and kisses my cheek.

“I’ll see you in a bit.” I nod and as she heads back out to her guests, I make my way back to my hotel room.

As soon as I get in my room I change out of my tux and in to some sleep pants and a t-shirt, so happy to get out of that monkey suit. Then I climb up on the queen size bed and pick up my phone to call my husband. He answers on the second ring, not even saying hello.

“Did she talk to Aaron?” he asks.

I roll my eyes. “Yes, she talked to Aaron.”

“And?”

“And he’s kind of pissed at the situation, but he understands that we need to work some things out,” I tell him. “They’re postponing their honeymoon.” I pause. “I feel like a dick.”

“Zac, you offered to wait till after the honeymoon, it’s not your fault they decided to postpone,” Taylor assures me.

“I know,” I sigh. “But I can’t help feeling a little guilty, ya know?”

“Mm-hmm.”

There’s a beat of silence. “How’s Jenna? Did she go down easily?” I ask.

“She was out before I even got back to the room,” Taylor tells me. “She’s like a log, didn’t even wake up when my phone rang.”

“Well, that’s good.” There’s a pause. “And how are you?” I ask.

“I’m okay, considering. I think this will be good,” he says. “I mean, no matter what happens we’ll always be brothers. We’ll always have that connection.”

“Taylor, you’re not my brother. You’ll never be my brother,” I tell him. “You’ll always be my first love, basically my first everything. I want to choose you.”

“I know,” he murmurs quietly. “But it’s okay if you don’t choose me. I mean, I’ll hate it, but I want what’s best for you and your happiness and if that ends up not being with me, I’ll accept it. I’ll move on. We’ll still be family. Always.” There’s a moment of silence. I’m about to speak up, but Taylor continues. “You know, I’ve always been scared that you’ll wake up some day and realize that us together isn’t what you want. That you’ll realize it’s unnatural and wrong and just… disgusting. Even after we got married I was still worried about it. I’m still worried about it. I think it’s a fear that will always be in the back of my mind. I think this time you spend with Andy will either confirm that for you or deny it. As much as I hope it’s the latter, I’ll understand if it’s the former. I just want you happy no matter who you’re with.”

“Tay,” I murmur at a loss. “That sounds kind of like a break up speech.”

“Oh, babe, that’s not what it is at all,” he says. “I’m just saying that I’ll understand if it’s not me in the end. But I love you so much and I hope that this will just make us stronger, that it’ll fix our problem.”

“Me too,” I whisper. “Will I see you at breakfast tomorrow?”

“Sure, I’ll be there,” he answers. We say I love you and goodnight then hang up the phone.

I sigh and flop back against the pillows on the bed. I hope he’s right. I hope this will just make us stronger and fix this whole problem with my feelings. But what if it goes in the opposite direction? What if I end up just wanting Andy even more? And what if she doesn’t want me back? This whole plan could be disastrous.

I’m really starting to doubt this whole decision when I hear the lock click and the door opens and in walks Andy. She’s beautiful as always even though she’s dressed in her pajamas now. She smiles at me, setting her duffle bag down next to my suitcase. Then she comes over to the bed and climbs up next to me. She cuddles in to my side like we always do, resting her head on my shoulder. My natural response is to put my arm around her, holding her close. “Did you talk to Tay?” she asks.

I nod with a sigh. “Yeah, he wanted to know if you talked to Aaron and I told him what you told me. Although I left out the part where you think this will be good for you too…” I pause for a second, then continue. “You said we’d talk about it. So um, lets talk.”

Andy sighs and presses her face in to my neck. “It’s okay,” I murmur, stroking her long blond curls. She sighs again and pulls back a little so her voice isn’t muffled. She wraps her arms around my waist tightly. “This is hard for me,” she says quietly.

“It’s okay,” I soothe. “Just take your time.”

Andy takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly. “I’ve been lying to you, to myself… to Aaron. I don’t blame you in any way, Monster. I just want you to know that before I say anything else.”

I nod. “Okay.”

“I do love you and Taylor and my relationship with Jenna, but…” She shakes her head. “I had your baby, Zac,” she murmurs. “I had your baby. Our baby… biologically anyway. There was no doubt in my mind that I wanted to do this for you and Taylor. I just never knew that it would change me. Change how I feel about you.” She’s quiet for a moment. I don’t know what to say to her. Thankfully I don’t have to say anything as she picks right back up.

“I’ve always loved you, more than the best friend you’ve always been to me,” she says. “But I always knew that you loved Taylor. That you wanted to be with him more than anything. Before you ever told me, I knew. It was obvious.” She pauses. “But it didn’t stop this teenage girl from hoping that some day, maybe, your feelings would change and we could be together. We could have a family together. And, in a way, we did. We made a family, we had a baby. And it’s hard and it hurts. I’ve just been pushing those feelings aside, trying to drown myself in Aaron’s love. I love Aaron, I really do but…” She shrugs.

“I know how you feel,” I murmur. “That’s exactly how I feel. You love him, but a piece of your heart belongs to someone else at all times no matter how hard you try to take it back and give it to your husband.” Andy lifts herself up on her elbow, nodding emphatically.

“That’s exactly it,” she says. “And… I don’t think Aaron can understand that.”

“Taylor gets it,” I reply. “That’s why he pushed us to do this. He wants the outcome to be in his favor, but he also realizes that it might not.”

“I didn’t… I didn’t tell Aaron what issues we needed to work on. It’s still a big mystery to him. I didn’t know how to tell him. I mean, how do you tell someone you just married moments before that you’re still in love with your gay best friend?” She shrugs one shoulder.

I reach up and tuck her hair behind her ear. “I’m sorry I put you in such a hard position,” I murmur.

Andy looks me in the eye. “You didn’t,” she says. “I could have said no and that you needed to work this out on your own. But I feel the same way, that’s why I wanted to do this, ya know?” I nod. “It’s really not your fault, Monster,” she tries to assure me.

I sigh. “I love you. You know that, right?” Andy nods and runs her fingers through my hair.

“I know,” she says quietly. “And I love you too. So much. It’s… It’s kind of painful.”

“I’m sorry,” I whisper.

Andy strokes my cheek, leaning in closer. “Don’t be sorry,” she murmurs. Then she presses her lips gently to mine.

Kissing Andy is so nice. Her lips are soft and move gently against mine. I turn on my side to face her, pulling her tightly to my chest. When I tangle my fingers in her curls, holding her close, there’s a feeling of hunger that pours in to her kiss. A feeling that transfers from her lips to mine and then deep in to my soul.

I slide my tongue over her lips and she moans quietly, opening up for me. I search the warm, wet confines of this new territory, feeling high with every new inch I explore. Andy’s hands roam over my back and then under my shirt, her hands warm and soft against my skin. I shiver as she trails her fingertips down my spine. I wrap my arms around her waist and pull her closer so our bodies are flush, our legs tangling together.

Soon my chest is becoming tight from lack of oxygen so I bring our passionate kiss to a soft peck. We pull back, both of us breathing hard, just staring in to each other’s eyes, green to brown. When we catch our breath I lick over my lips and open my mouth to speak, but nothing comes out.

Andy moves closer, pressing tightly to my chest once again and tucks herself under my chin. “I’ve always wanted to do that,” she murmurs. “I just never knew it’d be like that.”

“Like what?” I whisper.

My best friend only gives me a one word answer. “Perfect.”

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