New Short Story!
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writefictionTitle: Take Me Away
Author:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
writefiction|aka|punksoul
Pairing: Benji/Joel [good charlotte]
Rating: PG-13?
Disclaimer: Do not know or own. Complete fiction. Lyrics are solely the property of their rightful owners. No copyright infringement intended.
Warning: Twincest. Don't like, Don't read. Easy enough.
Summary: "No matter what it is, you can tell me," you reply. "I'm your brother, your twin." You just had to point out the obvious. Your one true flaw.
SONG CREDIT
Title: Take Me Away
Writer/Band: Avril Lavigne
Album: Under My Skin
Comments are appreciated. :)
TAKE ME AWAY
There's no way for me to even put my thoughts and feelings into words. I can't tell you, even though I tell you everything -and I mean everything. So I keep it all locked safely inside, wishing I could erase these feelings. These feelings about you. You, my other half, identical to me, my first and only love. I don't even want to think of how you'd react if you knew how I felt. That I'm in love with you. That it's always been you.
I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside
All I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do
You do if you knew
What would you do
I'm in constant pain every day being around you. Knowing that you're the only one I'll ever love, coupled with the fact that I'll never have you, causes me excruciating pain. It's almost too much to bear. You are so perfect in every way, you're flawless....except for the fact that you continually stomp all over my heart. I feel what I feel and I can't change that. But I've been taught that my feelings are sick, disgusting, a sin. My feelings conflict with my moral up-bringing.
All the pain
I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable come and take me away
I lock myself in my room. I can't talk to anyone about this. I'm all alone with my thoughts and feelings. They're ripping me apart. Then you knock on my door and stick your head inside my room. I stare at your beautiful face.
"Can I come in?" you ask. I swallow thickly and nod. You close the door and sit beside me on the bed. Your hand rests above my knee. I stare at it.
You wave your hand in front of my face, breaking my trance. I look at you. Your face shows your concern.
"I know something's wrong," you tell me. "You've been acting so weird lately. What's going on?" I lick my bottom lip.
"Nothing," I whisper. You look at me sternly.
"Don't lie to me. You know I can tell when you lie," you say.
"I have my reasons for lying." My voice is cold. I see the hurt in your eyes and I wish my bed would just swallow me whole so I don't have to deal with hurting you, no matter how much.
"Why?" you ask simply. I look down at your hand, still resting innocently on my leg.
"You wouldn't understand," I whisper. "No one would."
I feel like I'm all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold
I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you
I don't think you'd understand
'Cause no one understands
"I won't understand until you tell me," you say gently. I shake my head, tears spilling from my eyes. You guide my face to look at you. There's a sadness in your eyes, identical to my own. There's a frown on your pink, pouty lips.
You gently wipe the tears from my cheeks.
"Talk to me," you command softly.
"I can't," I whisper.
"No matter what it is, you can tell me," you reply. "I'm your brother, your twin." Fresh tears spring to my eyes, blurring my vision. You just had to point out the obvious. Your one true flaw. The only thing keeping me from true love, true happiness.
All the pain
I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable come and take me away
I cry harder so you wrap me in a hug. But I push you away.
"Don't touch me!" I exclaim. You look confused.
"Benji, just tell me what's wrong," you plead. I stand, beginning to pace. "Please, Benj. I can't stand to see you like this. Tell me and I'll fix it." I whirl around to face you.
"I love you, Joel!" I shout angrily. "I fucking love you! And not just as a brother. God no! I'm fucking IN love with you!" You just stare at me, a blank expression on your face.
I'm going nowhere on and on and
I'm getting nowhere on and on and on
I'm going nowhere on and on and off and on and off and on
I gnaw on my bottom lip. I need you to say something. You take a deep breath, puffing out your cheeks, and then blow it out slowly. You look down at the carpet. You shake your head saying,
"This is wrong, Benji." You look at me. "It's a sin."
"You think I don't know that?" I hiss.
"I love you, Benji, and I understand how you feel-"
"How can you possibly understand how I feel?" I interrupt.
"Because, Benj." You look me in the eye. "I'm in love with you too." My jaw drops, but then a grin quickly spreads across my face.
"No," you say. "Don't get all excited." I look at you confused. "We can't be together." You gesture between us. "It's a sin. It's wrong. Think about what people would say."
"Fuck them!" I exclaim. You shake your head.
"No, Benj. Just...no."
I kneel in front of you and take your hands. You look at me sadly.
"I love you, Joel. YOu're all I need. Just give me a chance." Your eyes fill with tears. I take your face gently in my hands and press my lips to yours. Your lips move softly with mine. You allow my tongue to enter your mouth, tasting, testing, loving. You kiss me back like you love me. Like you're IN love with me.
I pull back to look at you. Tears are raining down your beautiful face. I kiss them away gently.
"I'm sorry," you whisper. I shake my head.
"No, don't say that."
"I'm sorry," you whisper again.
"You can't just kiss me like that and then say you're sorry. I've finally tasted you. I can't go back now."
"I'm sorry," you whisper again. Then you stand and walk away from me...for good it seems. I plant my ass on the carpet and cry.
All the pain
I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable come and take me away
I cry until the sun comes up the next day. I lay on my back, staring up at the ceiling. Staring into nothingness. What I was feeling before wasn't pain. It was a dull ache. What I'm feeling now is definitely pain. Red, raw, and burning pain. The kind that makes you want to scream until you lose your voice and your throat bleeds.
But I can't scream. I can't even cry anymore. My heart is so broken that I can't understand how it's still beating. I can't understand how I'm still breathing. How I'm still living.
I hear my door creak open. I don't have to look. I know it's you. Have you come to rub my nose into the mess I've made?
I feel the bed shift as you climb up next to me. Then your face comes into view as you hover above me. I stare up at you, my face blank. I study you. Your eyes are red, puffy, bloodshot. Your hair is stuck up at weird angles. Your face is blotchy. Still, you're the most beautiful creature I've ever seen.
And then you speak, your voice raspy from crying all night.
"I'm sorry," you whisper. "I was wrong." You shrug. I continue to stare at you with no expression. You lean down, ghosting your lips over mine.
"I need you," you breathe.
I watch as you stip off your clothes. You lay down beside me, pulling the blankets over us.
"This is so wrong on so many levels," you tell me softly. I open my mouth to speak. But you silence me with a finger to my lips.
"Make love to me." It's a request, not a question. "Make me yours...if only for today. You can have me, Benj. All of me."
I slide my body on top of yours, kissing you deeply. You help me undress. When I finally enter you, tears drip from my eyes, landing on your cheeks. I touch the tip of my nose to your identical one.
"Don't change your mind," I whisper softly. "Please don't change your mind. Once we do this, I can't go back to just being your brother."
You kiss away my tears, combing your fingers through my hair.
"I could never change my mind," you whisper. "I love you, Benjamin." Your soft lips press against mine and I'm falling.
Take me away
Break me away
Take me away
Author:
writefiction|aka|punksoulPairing: Benji/Joel [good charlotte]
Rating: PG-13?
Disclaimer: Do not know or own. Complete fiction. Lyrics are solely the property of their rightful owners. No copyright infringement intended.
Warning: Twincest. Don't like, Don't read. Easy enough.
Summary: "No matter what it is, you can tell me," you reply. "I'm your brother, your twin." You just had to point out the obvious. Your one true flaw.
SONG CREDIT
Title: Take Me Away
Writer/Band: Avril Lavigne
Album: Under My Skin
Comments are appreciated. :)
TAKE ME AWAY
There's no way for me to even put my thoughts and feelings into words. I can't tell you, even though I tell you everything -and I mean everything. So I keep it all locked safely inside, wishing I could erase these feelings. These feelings about you. You, my other half, identical to me, my first and only love. I don't even want to think of how you'd react if you knew how I felt. That I'm in love with you. That it's always been you.
I cannot find a way to describe it
It's there inside
All I do is hide
I wish that it would just go away
What would you do
You do if you knew
What would you do
I'm in constant pain every day being around you. Knowing that you're the only one I'll ever love, coupled with the fact that I'll never have you, causes me excruciating pain. It's almost too much to bear. You are so perfect in every way, you're flawless....except for the fact that you continually stomp all over my heart. I feel what I feel and I can't change that. But I've been taught that my feelings are sick, disgusting, a sin. My feelings conflict with my moral up-bringing.
All the pain
I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable come and take me away
I lock myself in my room. I can't talk to anyone about this. I'm all alone with my thoughts and feelings. They're ripping me apart. Then you knock on my door and stick your head inside my room. I stare at your beautiful face.
"Can I come in?" you ask. I swallow thickly and nod. You close the door and sit beside me on the bed. Your hand rests above my knee. I stare at it.
You wave your hand in front of my face, breaking my trance. I look at you. Your face shows your concern.
"I know something's wrong," you tell me. "You've been acting so weird lately. What's going on?" I lick my bottom lip.
"Nothing," I whisper. You look at me sternly.
"Don't lie to me. You know I can tell when you lie," you say.
"I have my reasons for lying." My voice is cold. I see the hurt in your eyes and I wish my bed would just swallow me whole so I don't have to deal with hurting you, no matter how much.
"Why?" you ask simply. I look down at your hand, still resting innocently on my leg.
"You wouldn't understand," I whisper. "No one would."
I feel like I'm all alone
All by myself I need to get around this
My words are cold
I don't want them to hurt you
If I show you
I don't think you'd understand
'Cause no one understands
"I won't understand until you tell me," you say gently. I shake my head, tears spilling from my eyes. You guide my face to look at you. There's a sadness in your eyes, identical to my own. There's a frown on your pink, pouty lips.
You gently wipe the tears from my cheeks.
"Talk to me," you command softly.
"I can't," I whisper.
"No matter what it is, you can tell me," you reply. "I'm your brother, your twin." Fresh tears spring to my eyes, blurring my vision. You just had to point out the obvious. Your one true flaw. The only thing keeping me from true love, true happiness.
All the pain
I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable come and take me away
I cry harder so you wrap me in a hug. But I push you away.
"Don't touch me!" I exclaim. You look confused.
"Benji, just tell me what's wrong," you plead. I stand, beginning to pace. "Please, Benj. I can't stand to see you like this. Tell me and I'll fix it." I whirl around to face you.
"I love you, Joel!" I shout angrily. "I fucking love you! And not just as a brother. God no! I'm fucking IN love with you!" You just stare at me, a blank expression on your face.
I'm going nowhere on and on and
I'm getting nowhere on and on and on
I'm going nowhere on and on and off and on and off and on
I gnaw on my bottom lip. I need you to say something. You take a deep breath, puffing out your cheeks, and then blow it out slowly. You look down at the carpet. You shake your head saying,
"This is wrong, Benji." You look at me. "It's a sin."
"You think I don't know that?" I hiss.
"I love you, Benji, and I understand how you feel-"
"How can you possibly understand how I feel?" I interrupt.
"Because, Benj." You look me in the eye. "I'm in love with you too." My jaw drops, but then a grin quickly spreads across my face.
"No," you say. "Don't get all excited." I look at you confused. "We can't be together." You gesture between us. "It's a sin. It's wrong. Think about what people would say."
"Fuck them!" I exclaim. You shake your head.
"No, Benj. Just...no."
I kneel in front of you and take your hands. You look at me sadly.
"I love you, Joel. YOu're all I need. Just give me a chance." Your eyes fill with tears. I take your face gently in my hands and press my lips to yours. Your lips move softly with mine. You allow my tongue to enter your mouth, tasting, testing, loving. You kiss me back like you love me. Like you're IN love with me.
I pull back to look at you. Tears are raining down your beautiful face. I kiss them away gently.
"I'm sorry," you whisper. I shake my head.
"No, don't say that."
"I'm sorry," you whisper again.
"You can't just kiss me like that and then say you're sorry. I've finally tasted you. I can't go back now."
"I'm sorry," you whisper again. Then you stand and walk away from me...for good it seems. I plant my ass on the carpet and cry.
All the pain
I thought I knew
All the thoughts lead back to you
Back to what
Was never said
Back and forth
Inside my head
I can't handle this confusion
I'm unable come and take me away
I cry until the sun comes up the next day. I lay on my back, staring up at the ceiling. Staring into nothingness. What I was feeling before wasn't pain. It was a dull ache. What I'm feeling now is definitely pain. Red, raw, and burning pain. The kind that makes you want to scream until you lose your voice and your throat bleeds.
But I can't scream. I can't even cry anymore. My heart is so broken that I can't understand how it's still beating. I can't understand how I'm still breathing. How I'm still living.
I hear my door creak open. I don't have to look. I know it's you. Have you come to rub my nose into the mess I've made?
I feel the bed shift as you climb up next to me. Then your face comes into view as you hover above me. I stare up at you, my face blank. I study you. Your eyes are red, puffy, bloodshot. Your hair is stuck up at weird angles. Your face is blotchy. Still, you're the most beautiful creature I've ever seen.
And then you speak, your voice raspy from crying all night.
"I'm sorry," you whisper. "I was wrong." You shrug. I continue to stare at you with no expression. You lean down, ghosting your lips over mine.
"I need you," you breathe.
I watch as you stip off your clothes. You lay down beside me, pulling the blankets over us.
"This is so wrong on so many levels," you tell me softly. I open my mouth to speak. But you silence me with a finger to my lips.
"Make love to me." It's a request, not a question. "Make me yours...if only for today. You can have me, Benj. All of me."
I slide my body on top of yours, kissing you deeply. You help me undress. When I finally enter you, tears drip from my eyes, landing on your cheeks. I touch the tip of my nose to your identical one.
"Don't change your mind," I whisper softly. "Please don't change your mind. Once we do this, I can't go back to just being your brother."
You kiss away my tears, combing your fingers through my hair.
"I could never change my mind," you whisper. "I love you, Benjamin." Your soft lips press against mine and I'm falling.
Take me away
Break me away
Take me away
