shame on you, you fool me once

Dear Miss Ducky,
You've been MIA on AIM today. So I thought I'd update you here. Instead of going thru it all again, just read the post before this.

Don't worry I'll wait.

Did u finish? Well okay then. Let's get back to what I wanted to say to you.

I'm all anxious right now. I don't know if I'll be able to sleep.

I wish you were here right now. We could cuddle on my teeny twin size bed and you could tell me everything is gonna be okay. I guess I need a little reassurance .....and maybe some chocolate ;)

This is one of those times when I wish you just lived next door. Or at least in the same time zone so it's easier to catch each other on the intraweb. I wish I could have a real hug. Really I'm just dying for some human affection

I think I'll get going to bed now.
Maybe cry some. I feel so emotionally icky.

I love you and I miss you

Love Always,
amanda: jaclyn's twin sister♥

Ps maybe u should come up with a way for me to sign these private posts between us. Give me a cool nickname.

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So tonight we got a call from my sister, the one whose pregnant with twins. She's at 24 weeks and the babies are both 2 & 1/2 pounds. She's in the hospital. I'm not really sure what's going on, but they're giving her steroids for the babies' lungs. Her cervix I guess is preparing to give birth or something but she hasn't started dialating and I don't think she's actually gone into labor yet. But they have the babies on monitors.

I just want to cry. She lives four hours away. I'm scared and this song is making me all emo. Stupid JoBros. I'm listening to A Little Bit Longer and it's kind of hitting home right now. I hate it. But I'm torturing myself with it. Maybe I should read some Kradam to cheer me up. :p no it doesn't sound like much fun at this point.

*Sigh* I don't know what to do at this point. Jess will probably be on bedrest for the rest of the pregnancy. Therefore no baby shower and I bought the cutest little outfits for the twins. They're gonna be stylin' that's for sure. But still..... I'm weirded out and I don't like it. I don't like have my big sister in the hospital for any reason.

So I guess that's it for now. Neither mom nor I can sleep. It sucks.

Love
Me

Here's some pretty I drew on my iPod Touch:

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[EDIT]: I wrote this at, like four in the morning. But before I could post it, my battery kicked the bucket. Now that the iPod is charged, I'm posting it.

So I'm just now laying down to go to sleep. I was thisfuckingclose to finishing the baby afghan that I'm making for my cousin's wife. While I went to see if I needed to bind off special because I'm using circular needles, my mom decided to measure the blanket. Well, when I came back, five or six stitches had come off the needles and had unraveled almost two full stripes. I had to rip out almost everything I had worked on today in order to fix it. My mom went to bed before I noticed what happened so she doesn't know. But ugh!!!!!! I can't believe it!!!! I was so close to being done it's not even funny! Grrrrrr!

But it's okay. I'll get it done. I'll probably have it finished by tonight if all I do is knit all day. The shower's on Saturday so I really need to get it done. I have no fear that I won't. And after I get it done, I can go back to writing for the Hanfic Genre Challenge. I have the ending all figured out. Now I just need to get there.

That is all for now. I need sleep.

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So, this week has been very exciting so far. On Monday my dad has his replacement hip replaced. No, I'm not kidding. The hip they put in him last year was recalled so they had to put a new one in. But my younger sister Vanessa — Teeny Tiny Andrew's mom — says Dad's doing good and he should be home in a few days.

Vanessa also told me that the day my dad had his surgery was the day our new niece Makenzie Marie was born.

Also found out from my aunt that my older sister Jessica has heard both heartbeats. Yes, both. She's having twins.

Also, I get to see Jaci's new apartment on Friday. If she has the money, she's going to take me out for dinner for my bday. It'll be fun. Maybe I'll get to see Dora the Doggie.

Then on Saturday my mom and I are going to petco or petsmart to get ready for a new kitty. Then we'll go to the Concord-Merrimack County SPCA to adopt a new cat. I have my eye on a little cutie named Buddy. But we don't know if we'll get him that day since they have to approve our adoption application. But here's a picture of my little Buddy.

Ain't he cute? He reminds me of my sister's cats.

Okay, on to Saturday night. The whole gang is going out to Newicks for my birthday dinner on my actual bday. I can get my meal free or up to ten dollars off. It's our new family tradition.......well since last year when Newicks came to Concord.

Anyway that's my update on my Birthday Week.

Love always,
amanda: jaclyn's twin sister ♥

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so lil man is doing AWESOME! they took his CPAP (the tubes in his nose) out yesterday and he has been breathing 100% on his own which also means that he will not have to go back on it again!!! they also removed him from the lights cause he isnt yellow anymore. soon he will be off of the caffine and when gets off of that they will be able to see if he has sleep apnea which hopefully he doesnt and wont have cause if he does then he will be there longer. he hopefully will be able to come home in 3 weeks!! but lil guy has to gain weight in the incubator (which he has been) and gain outside in a regular bed as well. if he can stay the right color then they will be taking him out of the inclosed incubator soon. his belly also needs to digest his food better cause right now he is having a lil bit of a hard time getting it to digest thru large intestine but it is getting there. he needs to be able to either breast feed or bottle feed before he can go home.

thats all that really needs to happen before he can go home:) so hopefully he stays doing good and then we can take our man home:D YAY! he will be a week old tomorrow:) time goes by fast already lol
Thank You to all of you who have showed you care:) It means a lot to Tim and I.