shame on you, you fool me once

Okay, so this is a new post about the 4th of July. Let's pretend I didn't fuck up the first one.

Anyway, Mom, Jeff, Mark and I went to Mike's for a cookout last night. It was nice. Cold but nice. It definitely didn't feel like July. It felt more like Halloween. But it was nice; good food, good friends. Until the neighbors came. We didn't really like the girl and she invited people over and that made me wicked uncomfortable. Especially because of things they were saying in front of the five year old girl who is one of her students not her own kid. So after dinner and dessert I was ready for home. The fireworks hadn't even started yet. But I was uncomfortable with all these new people and my guts hurt from my Crohn's Disease. I thought I was going to die. I still have a little pain in my side. It sucks but what can you do? Also I was very proud of Buddy. He didn't get scared of the fireworks at all. He just chilled out on the rocking chair. And the fireworks are really loud at our house because we're so near to where they set them off. But my little Buddy was a tough guy; usually loud noises scare him until he hears them repeatedly and learns it's just noise and not something thhats going to attack or whatever. So last night wasn't too bad.

As some of you may or may not know, I've entered in The Spark Inside's Summer '09 writing challenge. This year's theme is writing in collaboration, which I've never done. So that part should be interesting. Also I'm paired with Renee C (mizzc) which makes me happy :) I was praying for her or Renee P because they were the only two I knew and I happen to like their writing. So who I got paired with is awesome. Bad thing: no plot....yet. Hopeffully we'll figure something out. I need to look at the challenges again and see what I can ccome up with for ideas. We're supposed too email each other tonight with ideas. It's kind of hard for me to come up with something when all I want to write is Kradam.

Also there's this little awards thing going on called The Hanson Only Awards. I was approached about voting. I told them I hadn't. Honestly, I don't think I've even read any of the fic that was nominated. Also I didn't really want to participate in something that banned 99% of my stories because they're Hancest. And yes, know that SPARK isn't allowing it either. But that was my choice. It sounded like fun and I mean, I do write some hetfic so it's not a big deal. But usually no one reads them so I don't usually post them. *shrug* I don't know. The two things feel different. With SPARK I knew I couldn't do Hancest. With the awards I didn't know I wasn't qualified just because of content. And srsly, what if one of my Hancest stories is my best work ever? Should I be penalized because I write hancest (and slash in general) better than I write hetfic? So that's all I'm going to say about that because I don't want an effing comment war.

So what else did I tag for this entry? Oh I know. The Gerbs: Scout and Froy. So on Friday Froy and Scout went back to Petco. As I explained on an earlier post, they were getting no quality of life with Buddy around. So my mom brought them back to Petco for me. Well, I went with her but I didn't to inside. It was too much. I really, really loved them. I'm going to miss my boys :( but there wasn't anything I could really do. Buddy just couldn't get over them. He spent hours looking for them that night. He didn't get it. But at least the little girl next door could use my leftover bedding, food and chew sticks for her hamster. So it won't be going to waste.

And that's it because I keep almost falling asleep.

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So if you read last night's post, you know I wasn't doing so well. I did end up going to my mom. I even read her the post I'd written. She said it was good. Good in the way that I'm able to express these things and that I even expressed it to her. We stayed up till 3 in the morning hanging out, her shoulder my space to cry. Then when we finally went to bed, I crawled into her bed with her and of course Buddy didn't want to be left out. So it was the two overweight women and the 14 pound cat in the double bed. It was a squeeze, but it worked.

My mom stayed home with me because I asked her too. It's not that often anymore that I need her to stay with me during the day like that, but I've been having a few rough weeks and she's trying to help me through it.

So I pretty much watched talk shows with my mom till noon when Lynn and I were supposed to take Roy the chihuahua for a walk. I waited till one and she never called or came over so Mom and I left to go Gerbil Supply Pricing as I call it. Petsmart's gerbils cost about 2$ cheaper than the ones at Petco. So maybe I'll get my gerbils there. Or I'll travel to Salem/Nashua/Chester to go to a breeder where they're only 5$ a piece. The cost of two from the breeder is 2$ less than petsmart which was 2$ cheaper than petco. So yeah.

But anyway. I have a list of things I need and know about how much they are. I know it'll probably cost me at least 100$...at the very least. But I'm going to try to buy everything before I get the gerbils. I want to have their home all set up for them when I bring them home

After gerbil pricing we went to WalMart which is under going remodeling and it's hard to find stuff. But we looked for the gerbil stuff there too and they didn't have much. The only thing I'd get was a food dish.... Maybe. I kinda like the ceramic ones better from Petsmart. Then we had to find the car stuff which wasn't too bad. We got three bottles of oil for the car in our entire trip. But oh! Can't forget that we stopped at Arnie's on the way home. Then I slept for about an hour then I knitted and ate dinner. Afterwards I knitted more and watch some of the AI final and some of DWTS final but I didn't see who won because I changed it over to Law&Order: SVU. That was a good show tonight.

Now I'm feeling a bit better and I'm fine to be home alone tomorrow. But Jen's coming at 2pm as per usual. Maybe I can get her to bring me to petsmart to buy some things I need to start getting in pro for my new Gerbies =D I can't wait till I get them. It'll be so much fun!

Anyway, I gotta go to bed now. I'll see ya in the morning.
Nighty night ♥

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[EDIT]: I wrote this at, like four in the morning. But before I could post it, my battery kicked the bucket. Now that the iPod is charged, I'm posting it.

So I'm just now laying down to go to sleep. I was thisfuckingclose to finishing the baby afghan that I'm making for my cousin's wife. While I went to see if I needed to bind off special because I'm using circular needles, my mom decided to measure the blanket. Well, when I came back, five or six stitches had come off the needles and had unraveled almost two full stripes. I had to rip out almost everything I had worked on today in order to fix it. My mom went to bed before I noticed what happened so she doesn't know. But ugh!!!!!! I can't believe it!!!! I was so close to being done it's not even funny! Grrrrrr!

But it's okay. I'll get it done. I'll probably have it finished by tonight if all I do is knit all day. The shower's on Saturday so I really need to get it done. I have no fear that I won't. And after I get it done, I can go back to writing for the Hanfic Genre Challenge. I have the ending all figured out. Now I just need to get there.

That is all for now. I need sleep.

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