New "Trapped Inside Your Eyes" Chapter!

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Title/Chapter: Trapped Inside Your Eyes (03/?)
Author: amanda: jaclyn’s twin sister
Pairing: Zaylor Hanson
Rating: PG cuz they say hell
P.O.V.: switches back and forth but is clearly marked.
Word Count: 1,189
Previous Chapters
Notes: Sequel to Breaking Free. Starts about two weeks after Breaking Free ends.
Other Notes: Title comes from the song Time for Miracles
Even More Notes: As I was writing chapter four last night I was not happy because I thought the story was almost over. But then this morning I woke up and had a brilliant idea to add to the plot! I was so excited that I got out the lappy and began to add note cards to my plot in SuperNoteCards. Now all I need to do is add cards for the end and the entire plot will be worked out. But I'm happy for now with what I have. Now I must go back to writing!!!!!
Summary: Andy has been keeping a secret. She cut off all ties with her best friend Zac just to keep this secret under wraps. What happens when the cat’s out of the bag? Whose lives will she take down in the process?

 

CHAPTER THREE

TAYLOR’S POV

 

I listen to Zac’s retreating footsteps. I listen as the door opens and closes. I wait, holding my breath, making sure he has actually left. Then I hear a car start up outside. I peek out the window to see Zac backing out of the driveway. I flop back down on the bed and cry in to the pillow.

I think my husband just gave me an ultimatum. I really cannot believe he told me to either accept his son, or say goodbye to both of them. How am I suppose to choose? I don’t want to have a reminder of Zac’s one night stand living in my house, staring at me day after day. And I sure as hell don’t want to adopt that kid! He’s not just evidence of Zac’s mistake, but of mine too. Of my mistake to give him permission to be with Andy.

What the hell was I thinking when I did that? I was thinking I was going to lose him, that’s what I was thinking. I thought if he got a taste of being with someone else, he’d realize how much he wanted to be with me. That backfired at first, but then we got our spark back. He realized how much he didn’t want to live without me. But now?

I cry harder in to the pillow. Now he wants that baby more than he wants me and our daughters. How could life have gone from so perfect one minute to so screwed up the next? I just don’t understand. Why did Andy have to do this to us? Why did she have to go and mess up such a good thing? It’s all her fault. If she had just given Jackson away, put him up for adoption without telling Zac, we wouldn’t be in this situation right now. Zac never would have known he had a son and I never would have found a little boy on our doorstep.

After a few minutes I sigh deeply, wiping at my eyes. I turn on to my back and stare up at the ceiling. The bed I’m laying in is the bed that Zac and I first spent cuddled up together in as more than brothers. This is the spot where we first touched each other, made each other cum. There were so many shared kisses in this bed. So many dreams. This is where we first planned to move to New York and be together for real, to not hide. Granted, I did a bad job with that at first, but I got over it. He’s my world. I’m not sure I can do this without him; live life and be a parent to our girls. But I cannot have that baby in our house. I cannot take care of that baby. I cannot and will not love that baby. That baby has ruined everything! I turn back in to the pillow and cry until I fall asleep.

I wake a while later to Jessie coming in the room. She’s got a niece in each arm. She tucks Jenna in to the bed across the room from me and lays Penny in the pack ‘n play that my parents keep here for her. I watch her silently as she takes care of my kids. When she straightens up, she looks at me, noticing I’m awake. She moves over to the bed to sit with me. I move in to a sitting position, pulling me knees up to my chest and wrapping my arms around them. “How ya holding up?” she asks. I shrug. “Whatever Zac did, just forgive him, okay?”

I shake my head. “Jessie, it’s not that easy. Besides, you don’t know the whole story.”

“Then tell me,” she commands. I sigh, studying her face for a moment. She’s not a little girl anymore. She’s a young adult now and maybe she’ll have some words of wisdom. Taking a deep breath I tell her the story.

When I’m finished my little sister takes her own deep breath and lets it out slowly. “Wow,” she says. “He and Andy had a baby.”

I nod. “Yup.”

“He wants you to adopt the baby, but you want nothing to do with him,” Jessie states. I nod again. My little sister slaps me up-side the head.

“Ow! Jessica!” I exclaim. “What was that for?!”

“Do you know how stupid you’re being?” she asks.

“I’m not being stupid,” I tell her.

“Uh, yeah, you are!” Jessie says. “You love Zac more than anything and you gave him permission to be with Andy. Now you’ve gotta deal with the consequences of what you and he did. I know you think that he would have slept with her whether you gave him permission or not, but I know he wouldn’t have. He just would have spent some time with her. But you gave him permission. That baby isn’t just Zac’s mistake. He’s yours too. Besides, Andy is letting you adopt him so just do it! It’s just like Jenna: she’s the surrogate but you and Zac are the parents. Now get off your high horse and make up with him!”

My little sister looks like she means business and it’s kind of scary. “It’s not like Jenna,” I tell her. “It is not at all like Jenna. This is completely different. He… And she… Naked….” I shake my head trying not to picture what happened between them. “It’s just different, okay?”

“No, not okay,” she says. “You are both going to be miserable until you make up. This is such an easy choice, Tay, I don’t know why you’re being so stubborn about it.”

“Because, Jess, I didn’t have to think about what happened between them that night. I was able to forget about it. But now…” I shake my head again. “Now I’ll see that baby every day and be reminded that they were together. That they didn’t make a baby the way they made Jenna. That they were actually physical with each other. Touching and kissing and…” I shudder. “I don’t want to even think about it.”

My sister reaches out and squeezes my arm gently. “You need to get over it, Tay. Not just for your sake or Zac’s. But for your babies. All three of them.” She pauses. “The only advice I’m going to give you is to go back to your husband. Bring your daughters back. Let them know their brother. Go be silly in love with Zac. Just because he has this new baby doesn’t mean he doesn’t love you or your girls any less. And really, Tay, he wants you to be the daddy. Doesn’t that mean anything to you?”

“No,” I mutter. “It means crap to me.”

Jessie throws her hands up in exasperation. “Fine. I give up. Don’t come crying to me about this when you’ve pushed Zac so far away that he won’t forgive you or take you back ‘cause I won’t be there to pick up the pieces. You’re only hurting yourself. And your kids.” Then she gets up and leaves the room.

 

Maybe she’s right.


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Comments

[rachie-grl6.livejournal.com]

Go Jessie! She was awesome in this.

I understand the heartbreak Taylor goes through seeing the baby but he does need to get over it. Zac choose him, not her. I hope they get happy again!

[writefiction.livejournal.com]

This icon is for Jessie b/c I ♥ her like whoa! in this story. Trust me, you'll continue to love her ;)

Yeah, I understand Tay's pain too. But like Jessie said, that baby is his mistake too.

Like I've said before: I'm a sucker for happy endings! So there will definitely be one....but maybe not between the brothers. Who knows? *evilgrin*

Thank you so much for reading. I enjoy your comments so much!