Accepting Trust - Ch. 11
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writefictionTitle: Accepting Trust
Chapter: 11 - club member
Author:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
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Pairing: Seb/Benji
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimor: Do not know or own. Purely fiction
Summary: Benji is the punk the new kid at school learns to trust. There's an instant connection, an instant attraction. Lame, I know.
Previous Chapters: One+Two+Three+Four+Five+Six+Seven+Eight+Nine+Ten
Comments are always appreciated. :)
CHAPTER ELEVEN: club member
We once again sit in the courtyard for lunch. When Benji and I get outisde, Paul, Billy and Aaron are already there.
Benji throws his bag down and sits leaning against the tree. He leaves enough space for me to have some trunk too. I sit and try to see what my three friends are talking about. But Benji leans close to whisper in my ear.
"I lied." I turn my head a little to see him.
"When?" I ask.
"The first day we met."
"About what?"
"'Member when you asked me if I wanted to hang out with you only because I was hitting on you?" I nod. "I lied," he says simply.
"So the whole speech about loners was a lie?" I ask. Benji shakes his head.
"No, that was true," he says. "But I was hitting on you also." I grin.
"Really?" He blushes and nods. "I'm glad you lied," I tell him. He grins.
"That's good." His fingertip strokes my cheek a little.
Billy breaks into the bubble that surrounds us, bringing us back to the real world.
"Hey, you two. No secrets," he says. I look at Benji and he discreetly takes my hand, out of sight from the others. Then I look at Billy.
"No secrets, eh?" Billy grins.
"Course not. We're all homies." I roll my eyes.
"Fine," I say. "I'll tell you a secret." The trio looks at me expectantly. I clear my throat nervously. I've only ever said this out loud to two people.
"I um, I'm gay." I shrug, nibbling on my bottom lip.
After a few moments of silence, Billy grins.
"Yay! A new club member!" He claps his hands and giggles. We all laugh at him.
"David really is your boyfriend, isn't he?" he asks. I nod slowly.
"He's actually the reason we moved," I tell him.
"What? Why?" Billy asks, looking confused.
"My parents have this crazy idea that being gay is the world's greatest sin or something of the sort," I explain. Billy's jaw drops and the others look disgusted.
"On top of that, they don't know I'm gay," I tell them. "My mom caught me and David kissing and I guess they assumed he forced it." I shrug.
"That's awful!" Billy exclaims. I nod.
"But that's why I need you guys not to tell anyone. My parents can't know," I say.
"What about Joel?" Paul asks.
"Uh, I think Joel will figure it out on his own. I mean, I've totally got the hots for his twin." I smirk at Benji. He blushes. "Aw, you're so cute!" I pinch his cheek.
"Wait a minute!" Billy exclaims. "What about David?" I look at the ground and shake my head.
"It's not working with the whole distance thing. It's just...It's not working." Billy reaches over to squeeze my knee.
There's silence for a moment. Then Billy speaks up.
"So, are you guys getting together or what?" he asks, somewhat excitedly. Benji and I exchange a look.
"We're just hanging out for now," Benji answers. I lean my head against his shoulder.
"Aw! You two look so cute together!" Billy squeals, reminding me of David. I smirk.
Then Billy starts rambling about something or other. I'm not really paying attention. I'm more focused on Benji's thumb rubbing circles into my palm. I turn my head, resting my chin on Benji's shoulder. I nuzzle his jaw with my nose. I see the corner of his mouth turn up. It makes me smile.
I sigh.
"Benji?"
"Hmm?"
"I really, really like you," I whisper. Benji pulls away a bit to look at me.
"I really, really like you too," he tells me. Then very quietly he says, "I want to kiss you, but we're in public and I don't think you'd like that."
"It's tempting," I reply. I bite my lip, studying his eyes. "Just a quick one." Benji's eyes light up. Then he pecks me.
Benji has the biggest grin on his face. I know I have a matching one. I smooth my hand over Benji's hair.
"God you're amazing," I tell him.
"So are you," he replies. I take his arm and put it around my waist. He pulls me to his side, not that I wasn't already close.
Benji kneads my hip with his fingertips. I pull my knees up to my chest, folding my arms over them. I smile at my friend and rest my head on my arms. We're just staring at each other. It's like we're having the most intimate conversation ever, without any words. So much is being said without speaking. I love the feeling it gives me.
We're practically in each other's laps, but it's not enough for me. How likely is it that my parents will find out how I act when I'm at school? So I move around until I've got my arm around Benji's middle and my head on his shoulder. His arms go around me tightly.
"What're you doing?" he asks softly.
"Just hold me," I whisper. He kisses my head.
As my eyes slip shut, the bell rings, signaling the end of lunch. I groan but don't move. I can hear the others around us getting up.
"Yo, are you two coming?" Aaron asks.
"We'll be there in a sec," Benji answers. I crack an eye open to see the others walk away.
I pull back enough to look at Benji. Then I rest my forehead against his and say,
"I don't want to go back inside."
"We have to," Benji replies.
"I can't believe you said that. I thought you'd want to ditch," I tell him with a smirk.
"Yeah, well, my mother hit me with the responsible stick this morning." Benji shrugs. I grin.
I quickly peck Benji's lips, then stand up, brushing my ass off. I grab my bag off the ground as Benji stands. I sling my backpack over my shoulder. Then Benji turns to me.
"Lets go," he says. We start towards the building. We walk silently. On an impulse, I slip my hand into Benji's. He gives my hand a squeeze and I squeeze back.
Benji and I spend the rest of the school day sharing secret smiles and passing notes. We generally just didn't pay attention to our teachers. Luckily we didn't get into any trouble. After school Benji went home to take care of Joel. I went with Billy and Paul to Billy's house. I needed to talk to David.
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Stay Tuned for Chapter 12!
[breaking up ISN'T hard to do]
Did you love it?
Did you hate it?
Remember: Comments give my stomach butterflies! XD
Chapter: 11 - club member
Author:
writefictionPairing: Seb/Benji
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimor: Do not know or own. Purely fiction
Summary: Benji is the punk the new kid at school learns to trust. There's an instant connection, an instant attraction. Lame, I know.
Previous Chapters: One+Two+Three+Four+Five+Six+Seven+Eight+Nine+Ten
Comments are always appreciated. :)
CHAPTER ELEVEN: club member
We once again sit in the courtyard for lunch. When Benji and I get outisde, Paul, Billy and Aaron are already there.
Benji throws his bag down and sits leaning against the tree. He leaves enough space for me to have some trunk too. I sit and try to see what my three friends are talking about. But Benji leans close to whisper in my ear.
"I lied." I turn my head a little to see him.
"When?" I ask.
"The first day we met."
"About what?"
"'Member when you asked me if I wanted to hang out with you only because I was hitting on you?" I nod. "I lied," he says simply.
"So the whole speech about loners was a lie?" I ask. Benji shakes his head.
"No, that was true," he says. "But I was hitting on you also." I grin.
"Really?" He blushes and nods. "I'm glad you lied," I tell him. He grins.
"That's good." His fingertip strokes my cheek a little.
Billy breaks into the bubble that surrounds us, bringing us back to the real world.
"Hey, you two. No secrets," he says. I look at Benji and he discreetly takes my hand, out of sight from the others. Then I look at Billy.
"No secrets, eh?" Billy grins.
"Course not. We're all homies." I roll my eyes.
"Fine," I say. "I'll tell you a secret." The trio looks at me expectantly. I clear my throat nervously. I've only ever said this out loud to two people.
"I um, I'm gay." I shrug, nibbling on my bottom lip.
After a few moments of silence, Billy grins.
"Yay! A new club member!" He claps his hands and giggles. We all laugh at him.
"David really is your boyfriend, isn't he?" he asks. I nod slowly.
"He's actually the reason we moved," I tell him.
"What? Why?" Billy asks, looking confused.
"My parents have this crazy idea that being gay is the world's greatest sin or something of the sort," I explain. Billy's jaw drops and the others look disgusted.
"On top of that, they don't know I'm gay," I tell them. "My mom caught me and David kissing and I guess they assumed he forced it." I shrug.
"That's awful!" Billy exclaims. I nod.
"But that's why I need you guys not to tell anyone. My parents can't know," I say.
"What about Joel?" Paul asks.
"Uh, I think Joel will figure it out on his own. I mean, I've totally got the hots for his twin." I smirk at Benji. He blushes. "Aw, you're so cute!" I pinch his cheek.
"Wait a minute!" Billy exclaims. "What about David?" I look at the ground and shake my head.
"It's not working with the whole distance thing. It's just...It's not working." Billy reaches over to squeeze my knee.
There's silence for a moment. Then Billy speaks up.
"So, are you guys getting together or what?" he asks, somewhat excitedly. Benji and I exchange a look.
"We're just hanging out for now," Benji answers. I lean my head against his shoulder.
"Aw! You two look so cute together!" Billy squeals, reminding me of David. I smirk.
Then Billy starts rambling about something or other. I'm not really paying attention. I'm more focused on Benji's thumb rubbing circles into my palm. I turn my head, resting my chin on Benji's shoulder. I nuzzle his jaw with my nose. I see the corner of his mouth turn up. It makes me smile.
I sigh.
"Benji?"
"Hmm?"
"I really, really like you," I whisper. Benji pulls away a bit to look at me.
"I really, really like you too," he tells me. Then very quietly he says, "I want to kiss you, but we're in public and I don't think you'd like that."
"It's tempting," I reply. I bite my lip, studying his eyes. "Just a quick one." Benji's eyes light up. Then he pecks me.
Benji has the biggest grin on his face. I know I have a matching one. I smooth my hand over Benji's hair.
"God you're amazing," I tell him.
"So are you," he replies. I take his arm and put it around my waist. He pulls me to his side, not that I wasn't already close.
Benji kneads my hip with his fingertips. I pull my knees up to my chest, folding my arms over them. I smile at my friend and rest my head on my arms. We're just staring at each other. It's like we're having the most intimate conversation ever, without any words. So much is being said without speaking. I love the feeling it gives me.
We're practically in each other's laps, but it's not enough for me. How likely is it that my parents will find out how I act when I'm at school? So I move around until I've got my arm around Benji's middle and my head on his shoulder. His arms go around me tightly.
"What're you doing?" he asks softly.
"Just hold me," I whisper. He kisses my head.
As my eyes slip shut, the bell rings, signaling the end of lunch. I groan but don't move. I can hear the others around us getting up.
"Yo, are you two coming?" Aaron asks.
"We'll be there in a sec," Benji answers. I crack an eye open to see the others walk away.
I pull back enough to look at Benji. Then I rest my forehead against his and say,
"I don't want to go back inside."
"We have to," Benji replies.
"I can't believe you said that. I thought you'd want to ditch," I tell him with a smirk.
"Yeah, well, my mother hit me with the responsible stick this morning." Benji shrugs. I grin.
I quickly peck Benji's lips, then stand up, brushing my ass off. I grab my bag off the ground as Benji stands. I sling my backpack over my shoulder. Then Benji turns to me.
"Lets go," he says. We start towards the building. We walk silently. On an impulse, I slip my hand into Benji's. He gives my hand a squeeze and I squeeze back.
Benji and I spend the rest of the school day sharing secret smiles and passing notes. We generally just didn't pay attention to our teachers. Luckily we didn't get into any trouble. After school Benji went home to take care of Joel. I went with Billy and Paul to Billy's house. I needed to talk to David.
Stay Tuned for Chapter 12!
[breaking up ISN'T hard to do]
Did you love it?
Did you hate it?
Remember: Comments give my stomach butterflies! XD
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