New "Snapshots of Our Life" Chapter!!!!
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writefictionTitle/Chapter: Snapshots of Our Life (03/??)
Author: amanda: jaclyn’s twin sister /![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
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Fandom: Tommy Joe Ratliff
Pairing: Tommy Joe Ratliff / OFC: Bella Connor
Rating: NC-17
Notes: written for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
schmoop_bingo . My card can be found HERE.
Bingo Square: Making Out
Warning: discussions of past rape, slight mention of past self-harm, mutual masturbation & oral sex.
Other Notes: feeling like a dork because all this time I thought Cam was a boy… Now I know different. *sigh* so apparently this is going to be a little AU where Cam is a boy, not a girl. My sincerest apologies.
Word Count: 4,113
Previous Chapters
Summary: Snapshots of the life Tommy & Bella build together.
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CHAPTER THREE
When they got to Tommy’s room it was like a blast from the past for Bella. She giggled and dropped her bag where she had put it down two and a half years previously. “What’s so funny?” Tommy asked, placing his bag down next to hers.
“It’s just… This room hasn’t changed at all and I just put my bag where I put it the first time I stayed here,” Bella explained.
Tommy chuckled. “You’re such a dork.” Bella just grinned and stuck her tongue out at him. “So which bed was yours?” he asked.
“That one,” she answered pointing to the one on the left.
Tommy nodded and sat down on it, bouncing a little. “These beds look short and stubby,” he stated making a face.
Bella laughed. “I know, right?! I thought the same thing the first time I was here,” she told him. “I can pretty much dangle my feet over the edge when I lay down and I’m only five-two.”
“Seriously?” Tommy’s eyebrows went up in to the blond fringe hanging over his forehead.
Bella nodded. “Yup.”
“C’mere,” Tommy murmured, holding out his hands. Bella moved forward, taking Tommy’s hands in hers and letting him pull her down on to his lap, making her straddle him.
Bella wrapped her arms around his neck and stared in to his eyes. “Hey,” she whispered.
“Hey yourself,” he replied softly. Then they both leaned in, their mouths matching up perfectly. Their lips glided together in a smooth rhythm, just lip to lip. Bella sighed quietly and Tommy took the opportunity to slide his tongue between her parted lips. She moaned softly and tilted her head a little, running her tongue along his. Bella buried her fingers in his hair, tugging gently as his hands pulled her further up his lap, pressing them as close as they could get.
Just as Tommy started to lay back, things getting pretty heated, there was a knock on the door. They groaned in unison, resting their foreheads together. Tommy sighed heavily. “I think I should get that.” Bella could only nod and slide from his lap, flopping back against the mattress.
“Oh, hey, what are you doing here?” Tommy asked.
“I thought maybe we could hang out,” said Adam’s voice.
Bella sat straight up in the bed, her head whipping around towards the door. She saw Tommy step back, gesturing to the inside of the room with his arm. Adam entered the room but stopped mid-step when he noticed Bella on the bed. “Oh, um, I didn’t know you had company,” he mumbled, shuffling back towards the hall.
“Oh no you don’t,” Tommy said grabbing Adam by the wrist. “You need to talk to her and I’ll go… for a walk. Call me when you’re done.” With that, Tommy shoved Adam further in to the room, turned on his heel and escaped out the door.
Adam just stood there and stared down at his feet, playing with the long sleeves of his shirt. “Adam,” Bella sighed. The sound seemed so loud when it broke the silence. Adam’s head snapped up to look at Bella, then immediately went back down to his boots. “Adam, come here. I’m not gonna bite,” she told him. He shuffled closer to the bed, keeping his eyes on the builder grade carpeting.
When he stopped a foot away from where Bella was sitting, she sighed again. She stood up and took three quick steps to him. She grabbed him by the hand, dragged him over to the bed and pulled him down next to her. Adam’s eyes were wide like a deer caught in headlights. Bella took a deep breath and looked him over. “Adam, breathe,” she commanded. At the sound of her words he inhaled deeply. “There you go,” she soothed. “See, this isn’t so bad, is it?” He shook his head. “Tommy told me,” Bella said quietly.
Adam swallowed audibly. “T-t-told you what?” he stuttered. Bella almost wanted to do a double-take. This was not the confident, sexual being she had met just five nights before. The one who had looked at her like he was the hunter and she was his prey.
Bella sighed almost sadly. “He told me that I was the first girl you’ve ever been with,” she told him.
“Oh,” Adam whispered, looking down, beginning to pick at the black polish coating his nails.
Bella reached out and put her hands over his. “Don’t,” she said. “You don’t need to be nervous or ashamed or whatever bad feeling it is that you’re feeling around me, okay?” Adam didn’t look up, but nodded his head yes.
Bella waited a moment to see if he’d say something. When he didn‘t, Bella did. “Addie,” she said softly. “What’s wrong? Did I do something to make you uncomfortable on Monday?” Adam shook his head no, keeping his eyes down still. “Then what’s wrong? Tommy says you haven’t been yourself since that night. Says you’ve been quiet and withdrawn.” Adam only shrugged and crossed his arms over his chest, jiggling his foot anxiously.
Bella sighed. “I can’t help you if you won’t talk to me,” she told him.
Adam’s head snapped up and he glares at her. “Who says I want or need your help?” he growled.
Bella held her hands up in defense. “Whoa, there, Adam. I’m on your side here. If you’re upset over what happened between us on Monday, I want to make it better. So you need to talk to me.” He looked back down and began picking at his nails again.
Bella sighed. I’m never going to get through to him, she thought. “So lets pick me apart,” she stated. “Did I completely suck at sex or something?”
Adam’s whole body tensed. After a moment he shook his head. “And that’s the problem,” he murmured.
“Why is that a problem?” Bella asked, confused.
“Because I liked it,” he answered. “I liked it and you’re… you’re a girl.” He made a face like the last word he said left a bitter taste in his mouth.
“It’s not like you didn’t know that going in to it,” she replied.
“Yeah, I know,” he said. “But I thought I got all worked up over seeing Tommy. But then I kissed you, I touched you, you were turning me on too and it was just… it kind of blew my mind to have sex with you to be honest.”
Bella felt her face flush extremely hot. “I… You… It was mind-blowing?” she stuttered.
Adam finally looked up at her with one eyebrow raised in curiosity. “Yeah…” he said slowly. “Why? It wasn’t good for you?”
“Adam!” she giggled. “How can you say that?” He shrugged. “You made me climax three times how can you even think it wasn’t mind-blowing for me too?”
Adam shrugged. “I’ve heard women can fake orgasms,” he stated simply.
Bella snorted. “You obviously don’t know me very well.”
“And by that you mean…?” he gestured vaguely with his hands.
Bella scooted closer to him and took his hands in hers, sighing lightly. “Babe, there’s a lot you don’t know about me,” she said quietly.
“Like what?” he asked.
“Like before you and Tommy I’d never experienced an orgasm brought on by another person,” Bella answered looking down at their hands.
“Why?” Adam asked. “You weren’t a virgin, were you?”
Bella shook her head. “No, it’s not that,” she murmured. “It’s… Well, I started having sex at a very young age so I didn’t get any pleasure out of it.” She shrugged. “The boyfriend I lost my virginity to and I only had sex twice. Then my next boyfriend, we did it a few times before I decided I really did not want to chance having a baby in high school, ya know?” Bella looked up at Adam and he nodded. She looked back down, removing her hands from her new friend’s and clasped them together tightly in her lap. So tightly in fact that her knuckles turned white.
“So um, this new guy, apparently he didn’t understand the meaning of no or I don’t want to. I gave up trying to keep my pants on. I just laid there, let him have me, didn’t fight him or scream for help even though his parents were right downstairs.” She shrugged. “He told me he loved me when he was done.”
“Oh god,” Adam murmured. He pulled Bella in for a tight hug. She nestled in to the crook of his shoulder, feeling quite safe and protected. “Why would anyone hurt someone as sweet and kind as you?”
“He didn’t think he was hurting me,” Bella murmured. “He thought he was making love to me.”
“Doesn’t matter,” Adam replied. “You told him no, and knowing you, you probably didn’t tell him just once. He should have stopped when you first said it.” Bella nodded in agreement, eyes tearing up. “How long ago was this?” Adam asked quietly.
“Ten years ago this month,” she answered. “And you and Tommy are the first guys I let even get near me. Being around guys that I have feelings for makes me physically ill, like I’m going to vomit everywhere. But not you and not Tommy.” She pulled back enough to look at Adam. “There’s something about the two of you that makes me feel… I dunno, safe. Like you aren’t going to hurt me, that you’ll treat me right. The best thing about it is that I’m hopelessly attracted to both of you but neither of you make me feel sick to my stomach. It’s nice to feel that way for once.”
That winning smile of Adam’s showed up on the his face then. “We make you feel safe?” Bella nodded. “Why do you think it happened now?” he asked.
Bella shrugged. “Maybe I just found the right people to trust. The right people to have my first experience with after such an awful trauma.”
Adam smiled softly, brushing her hair out of her eyes. “I’m glad I got to be one of those people.” There was a beat of silence. “So um, I guess I could tell you what’s wrong with me now.”
“Yeah?” Bella asked. Adam nodded. “I’m all ears.”
Adam sighed deeply. “It’s just… I’ve always been gay, that’s just who I am. But now I’m beginning to question that and it’s like I’m having an identity crisis or something.” He looked down, shaking his head.
“Oh, Addie,” Bella murmured. “You are still you no matter what direction your sexuality is going in. You are still Adam Fucking Lambert. That will never change no matter what. The only thing that’s different is that you have twice as many people to love now.”
Adam lifted his gaze to Bella’s then, a slight smile on his face. “I never thought of it like that, having more people to love. I kind of… well, I kind of like that.”
She smiled back. “I’m a firm believer that gender shouldn’t stop a person from falling in love with someone else.”
“I like that belief,” Adam replied.
There’s a moment of silence in which they just smiled at each other. But then Bella had to ask an important question. “Are you feeling better now?”
Adam grinned at her. “Yeah, actually, I am.” He hugged her tightly. “Thank you so much for helping me.”
“It’s the least I could do,” she told him. “After all, I’m the one that gave you all that self-doubt.”
Adam laughed. “Well, you know, it was pretty much worth it for that night with you,” he said.
“Really?” she asked, looking in to Adam’s bright blue eyes.
He nodded. “Yeah. I have a feeling we’re going to be friends for a really long time.”
“Just friends?”
Adam nodded again. “I’m pretty sure you’re already taken… if you know what I mean.” He raised his eyebrows.
Tommy.
Bella grinned at him. “Yeah, I think I do know.”
Adam leaned in then and kissed her lightly on the lips. “Thanks for being so good to me,” he said. “Now lets get your man back in here. I have a feeling I interrupted something.”
Bella giggled. “Wouldn’t you like to know?”
They both stood, hugging tightly. Then Bella walked Adam to the door. When they opened it, they found Tommy sitting in the hall, leaning against the wall opposite of the hotel room door. “Did you kiss and makeup yet?” he asked. Adam and Bella nodded. Tommy got to his feet and stepped over the threshold. Then he gave Adam a little push out in to the hallway. “You can leave now.” Adam laughed, waving at the pair as he walked back towards his room.
Tommy kicked the door closed and wrapped his arms around Bella, burying his face in her neck. “Missed you,” he muttered.
She giggled lightly. “You were only gone, like, fifteen minutes.”
“I know, but I still missed you,” he said.
“Aw, poor baby,” Bella teased, taking him by the hands and walking backwards towards the bed. He smiled at her, letting her take complete control of the situation.
When they got to the bed, Bella turned and pushed Tommy down on to the mattress. He scooted his way up towards the headboard, laying back against the pillow. Bella climbed up on the end of the bed and crawled like a tigress up her lover’s body, a hand and knee planted on either side of him. She leaned down, capturing his lips with her own. He moaned quietly, his lips parting, opening for her tongue. As she searched around his mouth with her tongue, his long fingers reached up to grip her hips, pulling her body down on top of his.
Bella stretched out against Tommy so they’re toe to toe and nose to nose, his legs parting to let her fall between them. Bella fit so perfectly on his body that it honestly made her shiver. She curled her fingers in Tommy’s gorgeous blond locks and tugged gently. He moaned in to her mouth and she swallowed down the sound.
Their kisses were desperate, needy, wanting. Bella felt ravenous for the bass player, for his touch, his kisses, his entire body. It felt like it’d been years and not just five days since they’d been together, and that one night was just not enough for her. Bella could feel Tommy’s need radiating from him. The way his hands gripped her hips, tangled in her hair, and pulled at the hem of her shirt.
Bella sat up, straddling Tommy’s hips, and crossed her arms over her stomach, grabbing the hem of her tee, and whipped it off over her head. She grinned at Tommy as his eyes wandered over the naked skin she’d just revealed. His hands cupped her face for a moment before softly trailing down her neck, shoulders, arms and over to her ribs, just below her bra. His fingertips skittered down the bumps of her ribs and down her soft stomach, finally finding the waist of her jeans. Bella slapped at his hands. “Nuh-uh,” she told him. “Tit for tat, it’s only fair.”
Tommy grinned and sat up, pulling his shirt over his head and tossed it aside. “How’s that?” he asked.
“Mm, much better,” Bella purred, reaching out to touch the smooth plain of skin before her. She tweaked Tommy’s nipples a bit roughly, making him toss his head back with a moan. Bella took this opportunity to lean in and lick a stripe up his throat from the dip in his collarbone all the way up to his chin; only stopping momentarily to suck at his Adam’s apple.
Tommy sighed quietly and looked at Bella, his hands coming up to cup her face gently. He stroked his thumb over her cheekbone, staring in to her emerald eyes. “What?” she murmured when he didn’t say anything.
Tommy shook his head, a smile on his face. “It’s just… this all seems so surreal. Being here with you, meeting you. It’s crazy and dream-like and… I don’t think I could have wished for anything better.”
“Shouldn’t I be the one saying that, Mr. Rock Star, bass player for Adam Lambert?” Bella grinned.
Tommy shrugged. “Probably, but…”
“But what?” she asked.
“You’re everything I’ve been looking for,” he answered softly.
“Tommy, it’s only been five days,” she responded. “And this is only the second time we’ve seen each other.”
“It doesn’t matter,” he said. “I just know that I’m going to be very upset when you leave in the morning.”
Bella pets his hair and kissed his forehead. “We still have all night,” she murmured. Tommy nodded and Bella climbed off him, laying down on her side. Tommy laid down also, turning on his side to face her. He pushed her hair back from her eyes and smiled at her. Bella wrapped her arms around Tommy’s waist pulling him against her, his lips just a breath away from hers. “I love the way you kiss me,” she told him quietly.
“I love the way you taste,” he replied. Then his lips were on hers, his tongue delving in her mouth. Bella moaned quietly in the back of her throat and, god, she could never get enough of it. Tommy tasted so sweet like he’d been sucking on hard candy all day or eating pure sugar, either way it was heaven to Bella. She loved the way his tongue searched her mouth as if he was trying to kiss her to death. And when it tickled the roof of her mouth, she moaned, her hips instinctively jerking towards his.
Tommy slid his hands down her sides until he found her hips, gripping them tightly enough to bruise but Bella didn’t seem to mind. It was so easy with the beautiful man that she didn’t even mind the extra pounds around her waist hanging there like an unwanted belt of fat. He treated her in a way that made her forget her pudgy belly and the scars from years of cutting or the ones left by stretch marks lining that pudgy belly of hers.
Tommy’s hands roamed Bella’s back as he continued to kiss her like this would be the last time they’d ever get to. Then his hands found the clasp on her bra, unhooked it, pulled it down her arms and tossed it away. He kept his mouth on hers as he tweaked her nipples, rolling them gently between his thumb and forefinger till they were hard nubs and Bella was writhing against his slender body.
Bella pulled back, breathing deeply, trying to catch her breath. Tommy took that moment to lean down and surround one pert nipple with his mouth, still applying his torturous rolling and pinching to the other with his talented fingers. Bella weaved her hands through his hair, cradling his head against her chest. He licked and sucked at her nipple till she was whining with the pleasure, then he moved to the other one, providing the same attention.
Tommy kissed his way up Bella’s breast bone, throat, chin and then landed on her lips. She moaned, pulling him closer by his blond locks, and threw a leg over his hip. He reached down, grasping her thigh, pulling their lower halves together. The pair moaned as Tommy’s erection rubbed against Bella’s jean-clad center and, god! She just wanted out of her pants!
Bella reached down to the button on her jeans but Tommy slapped her hand away. He deftly popped the button from the hole and slowly slid the zipper down. He pushed Bella’s jeans down to her thighs and did the same with her panties. She whined as she tried to wriggle the rest of the way out of them. Tommy giggled against her mouth, then pulled away, pushing her on to her back, to peel the remaining clothes off her legs.
Tommy settled on top of Bella, resuming the kiss. Bella moaned, wrapping her legs around Tommy’s waist, grinding her hips in to him. She could feel his hard length through his tight jeans and it just made her grind harder, wanting to feel more. “Please,” Bella murmured in to his mouth, reaching down, but his hand got there first, expertly popping the button and unzipping the fly. Bella dug in to Tommy’s boxer-briefs, wrapping her long fingers around his dripping length. She slid her hand up to his tip and rubbed the dribble of pre-cum in to the delicate skin there. Tommy moaned in to Bella’s mouth, bucking his hips in to her hand. Then he was pulling away and Bella whimpered at the loss. But as soon as his pants and briefs were off, he was right back on top of Bella, kissing and grinding.
Tommy’s hand wandered down Bella’s side and over to the inside of her thigh. She trembled with anticipation. His fingers slipped between her folds, gentle pressure against her clit, and she felt like she could lose it any second. “Oh god, Tommy,” she murmured, gasping at the end when he pressed his thumb a little harder against her pleasure spot. Bella pulled him down for a hard, urgent kiss as his fingers stroked her clitoris. Bella held the back of Tommy’s head with one hand, keeping him in place, then wrapped her other hand around the base of his cock. She stroked him with long, slow strokes until he whined, bucking his hips. Bella sped up the pace of her hand, squeezing and twisting in all the right places it seemed by the little moans and purrs he was making against her mouth.
Bella gasped as Tommy quickly slid a long finger inside of her, then drew back and plunged it back in, essentially fucking her with the slender digit. She stroked him faster, her thumb rubbing over his slit. He moaned and rewarded her with a second finger. Bella mimicked Tommy’s vocal outcries as she pushed herself down hard on his fingers, loving the way he curled them to find that spot that would make stars explode behind her eyelids.
They broke their kiss at the same time, panting and gulping for air. Tommy laid his forehead against Bella’s shoulder, grinding in to her hand at the same speed he was fucking her with his two… Oh god, now three, fingers. Bella dug my fingers in to his hair and twisted the hand she had around his erection. He cried out as he exploded in her hand and all over her thighs. Bella whimpered at the sound and at the feeling of Tommy’s cum coating her skin. Tommy pulled away then, removing his hand from between her legs. Bella whimpered again, moving her hips to try to find his fingers again, wanting to impale herself on them.
But Tommy just lifted her hand, the one coated in his climax, and slowly, seductively licked every last drop from her fingers. Bella watched him from hooded eyes, moaning quietly, her hand trailing down her stomach. It stopped though when Tommy bent down to lick his cum from between her thighs. Bella moaned a little louder that time and spread her legs wider.
When she was all clean, Tommy gave her a devilish grin, then dove between her legs, licking her clit hard and fast, nipping lightly with his teeth and sucking at it. Bella cried out loudly as the pleasure burst through her all at once. Then Tommy’s tongue moved down to her entrance and he shoved it inside of her, licking and fucking her with the pink muscle until she cried his name. Tommy lapped up her sweet juices, letting it wash over his tongue. He hummed appreciatively, licking until Bella was too sensitive to take it anymore and tugged on his hair. Tommy got the hint, crawling up her body and kissed her hard, working his tongue in to her mouth. Tasting a mixture of Tommy and her own self on Tommy’s tongue made her moan and suck hard on his tongue, wanting every last bit of flavor all to herself.
After a few moments of this hard kissing, Tommy slowly and gently brought it to a peck. He nuzzled against Bella’s neck, then moved to pull the blankets down, allowing her to crawl beneath them. He slipped between the sheets, laying flush on top of Bella, burying his face in her neck. She pet his hair lovingly as she tried to calm her frenzied heart. This had been an amazing experience and she was so glad she had gotten to share it with Tommy. He was perfect… he was perfect for her. But I’ll keep that to myself for now, she thought.
Author: amanda: jaclyn’s twin sister /
writefiction Fandom: Tommy Joe Ratliff
Pairing: Tommy Joe Ratliff / OFC: Bella Connor
Rating: NC-17
Notes: written for
schmoop_bingo . My card can be found HERE.Bingo Square: Making Out
Warning: discussions of past rape, slight mention of past self-harm, mutual masturbation & oral sex.
Other Notes: feeling like a dork because all this time I thought Cam was a boy… Now I know different. *sigh* so apparently this is going to be a little AU where Cam is a boy, not a girl. My sincerest apologies.
Word Count: 4,113
Previous Chapters
Summary: Snapshots of the life Tommy & Bella build together.
Follow my twitter for fic updates! @writefiction
CHAPTER THREE
When they got to Tommy’s room it was like a blast from the past for Bella. She giggled and dropped her bag where she had put it down two and a half years previously. “What’s so funny?” Tommy asked, placing his bag down next to hers.
“It’s just… This room hasn’t changed at all and I just put my bag where I put it the first time I stayed here,” Bella explained.
Tommy chuckled. “You’re such a dork.” Bella just grinned and stuck her tongue out at him. “So which bed was yours?” he asked.
“That one,” she answered pointing to the one on the left.
Tommy nodded and sat down on it, bouncing a little. “These beds look short and stubby,” he stated making a face.
Bella laughed. “I know, right?! I thought the same thing the first time I was here,” she told him. “I can pretty much dangle my feet over the edge when I lay down and I’m only five-two.”
“Seriously?” Tommy’s eyebrows went up in to the blond fringe hanging over his forehead.
Bella nodded. “Yup.”
“C’mere,” Tommy murmured, holding out his hands. Bella moved forward, taking Tommy’s hands in hers and letting him pull her down on to his lap, making her straddle him.
Bella wrapped her arms around his neck and stared in to his eyes. “Hey,” she whispered.
“Hey yourself,” he replied softly. Then they both leaned in, their mouths matching up perfectly. Their lips glided together in a smooth rhythm, just lip to lip. Bella sighed quietly and Tommy took the opportunity to slide his tongue between her parted lips. She moaned softly and tilted her head a little, running her tongue along his. Bella buried her fingers in his hair, tugging gently as his hands pulled her further up his lap, pressing them as close as they could get.
Just as Tommy started to lay back, things getting pretty heated, there was a knock on the door. They groaned in unison, resting their foreheads together. Tommy sighed heavily. “I think I should get that.” Bella could only nod and slide from his lap, flopping back against the mattress.
“Oh, hey, what are you doing here?” Tommy asked.
“I thought maybe we could hang out,” said Adam’s voice.
Bella sat straight up in the bed, her head whipping around towards the door. She saw Tommy step back, gesturing to the inside of the room with his arm. Adam entered the room but stopped mid-step when he noticed Bella on the bed. “Oh, um, I didn’t know you had company,” he mumbled, shuffling back towards the hall.
“Oh no you don’t,” Tommy said grabbing Adam by the wrist. “You need to talk to her and I’ll go… for a walk. Call me when you’re done.” With that, Tommy shoved Adam further in to the room, turned on his heel and escaped out the door.
Adam just stood there and stared down at his feet, playing with the long sleeves of his shirt. “Adam,” Bella sighed. The sound seemed so loud when it broke the silence. Adam’s head snapped up to look at Bella, then immediately went back down to his boots. “Adam, come here. I’m not gonna bite,” she told him. He shuffled closer to the bed, keeping his eyes on the builder grade carpeting.
When he stopped a foot away from where Bella was sitting, she sighed again. She stood up and took three quick steps to him. She grabbed him by the hand, dragged him over to the bed and pulled him down next to her. Adam’s eyes were wide like a deer caught in headlights. Bella took a deep breath and looked him over. “Adam, breathe,” she commanded. At the sound of her words he inhaled deeply. “There you go,” she soothed. “See, this isn’t so bad, is it?” He shook his head. “Tommy told me,” Bella said quietly.
Adam swallowed audibly. “T-t-told you what?” he stuttered. Bella almost wanted to do a double-take. This was not the confident, sexual being she had met just five nights before. The one who had looked at her like he was the hunter and she was his prey.
Bella sighed almost sadly. “He told me that I was the first girl you’ve ever been with,” she told him.
“Oh,” Adam whispered, looking down, beginning to pick at the black polish coating his nails.
Bella reached out and put her hands over his. “Don’t,” she said. “You don’t need to be nervous or ashamed or whatever bad feeling it is that you’re feeling around me, okay?” Adam didn’t look up, but nodded his head yes.
Bella waited a moment to see if he’d say something. When he didn‘t, Bella did. “Addie,” she said softly. “What’s wrong? Did I do something to make you uncomfortable on Monday?” Adam shook his head no, keeping his eyes down still. “Then what’s wrong? Tommy says you haven’t been yourself since that night. Says you’ve been quiet and withdrawn.” Adam only shrugged and crossed his arms over his chest, jiggling his foot anxiously.
Bella sighed. “I can’t help you if you won’t talk to me,” she told him.
Adam’s head snapped up and he glares at her. “Who says I want or need your help?” he growled.
Bella held her hands up in defense. “Whoa, there, Adam. I’m on your side here. If you’re upset over what happened between us on Monday, I want to make it better. So you need to talk to me.” He looked back down and began picking at his nails again.
Bella sighed. I’m never going to get through to him, she thought. “So lets pick me apart,” she stated. “Did I completely suck at sex or something?”
Adam’s whole body tensed. After a moment he shook his head. “And that’s the problem,” he murmured.
“Why is that a problem?” Bella asked, confused.
“Because I liked it,” he answered. “I liked it and you’re… you’re a girl.” He made a face like the last word he said left a bitter taste in his mouth.
“It’s not like you didn’t know that going in to it,” she replied.
“Yeah, I know,” he said. “But I thought I got all worked up over seeing Tommy. But then I kissed you, I touched you, you were turning me on too and it was just… it kind of blew my mind to have sex with you to be honest.”
Bella felt her face flush extremely hot. “I… You… It was mind-blowing?” she stuttered.
Adam finally looked up at her with one eyebrow raised in curiosity. “Yeah…” he said slowly. “Why? It wasn’t good for you?”
“Adam!” she giggled. “How can you say that?” He shrugged. “You made me climax three times how can you even think it wasn’t mind-blowing for me too?”
Adam shrugged. “I’ve heard women can fake orgasms,” he stated simply.
Bella snorted. “You obviously don’t know me very well.”
“And by that you mean…?” he gestured vaguely with his hands.
Bella scooted closer to him and took his hands in hers, sighing lightly. “Babe, there’s a lot you don’t know about me,” she said quietly.
“Like what?” he asked.
“Like before you and Tommy I’d never experienced an orgasm brought on by another person,” Bella answered looking down at their hands.
“Why?” Adam asked. “You weren’t a virgin, were you?”
Bella shook her head. “No, it’s not that,” she murmured. “It’s… Well, I started having sex at a very young age so I didn’t get any pleasure out of it.” She shrugged. “The boyfriend I lost my virginity to and I only had sex twice. Then my next boyfriend, we did it a few times before I decided I really did not want to chance having a baby in high school, ya know?” Bella looked up at Adam and he nodded. She looked back down, removing her hands from her new friend’s and clasped them together tightly in her lap. So tightly in fact that her knuckles turned white.
“So um, this new guy, apparently he didn’t understand the meaning of no or I don’t want to. I gave up trying to keep my pants on. I just laid there, let him have me, didn’t fight him or scream for help even though his parents were right downstairs.” She shrugged. “He told me he loved me when he was done.”
“Oh god,” Adam murmured. He pulled Bella in for a tight hug. She nestled in to the crook of his shoulder, feeling quite safe and protected. “Why would anyone hurt someone as sweet and kind as you?”
“He didn’t think he was hurting me,” Bella murmured. “He thought he was making love to me.”
“Doesn’t matter,” Adam replied. “You told him no, and knowing you, you probably didn’t tell him just once. He should have stopped when you first said it.” Bella nodded in agreement, eyes tearing up. “How long ago was this?” Adam asked quietly.
“Ten years ago this month,” she answered. “And you and Tommy are the first guys I let even get near me. Being around guys that I have feelings for makes me physically ill, like I’m going to vomit everywhere. But not you and not Tommy.” She pulled back enough to look at Adam. “There’s something about the two of you that makes me feel… I dunno, safe. Like you aren’t going to hurt me, that you’ll treat me right. The best thing about it is that I’m hopelessly attracted to both of you but neither of you make me feel sick to my stomach. It’s nice to feel that way for once.”
That winning smile of Adam’s showed up on the his face then. “We make you feel safe?” Bella nodded. “Why do you think it happened now?” he asked.
Bella shrugged. “Maybe I just found the right people to trust. The right people to have my first experience with after such an awful trauma.”
Adam smiled softly, brushing her hair out of her eyes. “I’m glad I got to be one of those people.” There was a beat of silence. “So um, I guess I could tell you what’s wrong with me now.”
“Yeah?” Bella asked. Adam nodded. “I’m all ears.”
Adam sighed deeply. “It’s just… I’ve always been gay, that’s just who I am. But now I’m beginning to question that and it’s like I’m having an identity crisis or something.” He looked down, shaking his head.
“Oh, Addie,” Bella murmured. “You are still you no matter what direction your sexuality is going in. You are still Adam Fucking Lambert. That will never change no matter what. The only thing that’s different is that you have twice as many people to love now.”
Adam lifted his gaze to Bella’s then, a slight smile on his face. “I never thought of it like that, having more people to love. I kind of… well, I kind of like that.”
She smiled back. “I’m a firm believer that gender shouldn’t stop a person from falling in love with someone else.”
“I like that belief,” Adam replied.
There’s a moment of silence in which they just smiled at each other. But then Bella had to ask an important question. “Are you feeling better now?”
Adam grinned at her. “Yeah, actually, I am.” He hugged her tightly. “Thank you so much for helping me.”
“It’s the least I could do,” she told him. “After all, I’m the one that gave you all that self-doubt.”
Adam laughed. “Well, you know, it was pretty much worth it for that night with you,” he said.
“Really?” she asked, looking in to Adam’s bright blue eyes.
He nodded. “Yeah. I have a feeling we’re going to be friends for a really long time.”
“Just friends?”
Adam nodded again. “I’m pretty sure you’re already taken… if you know what I mean.” He raised his eyebrows.
Tommy.
Bella grinned at him. “Yeah, I think I do know.”
Adam leaned in then and kissed her lightly on the lips. “Thanks for being so good to me,” he said. “Now lets get your man back in here. I have a feeling I interrupted something.”
Bella giggled. “Wouldn’t you like to know?”
They both stood, hugging tightly. Then Bella walked Adam to the door. When they opened it, they found Tommy sitting in the hall, leaning against the wall opposite of the hotel room door. “Did you kiss and makeup yet?” he asked. Adam and Bella nodded. Tommy got to his feet and stepped over the threshold. Then he gave Adam a little push out in to the hallway. “You can leave now.” Adam laughed, waving at the pair as he walked back towards his room.
Tommy kicked the door closed and wrapped his arms around Bella, burying his face in her neck. “Missed you,” he muttered.
She giggled lightly. “You were only gone, like, fifteen minutes.”
“I know, but I still missed you,” he said.
“Aw, poor baby,” Bella teased, taking him by the hands and walking backwards towards the bed. He smiled at her, letting her take complete control of the situation.
When they got to the bed, Bella turned and pushed Tommy down on to the mattress. He scooted his way up towards the headboard, laying back against the pillow. Bella climbed up on the end of the bed and crawled like a tigress up her lover’s body, a hand and knee planted on either side of him. She leaned down, capturing his lips with her own. He moaned quietly, his lips parting, opening for her tongue. As she searched around his mouth with her tongue, his long fingers reached up to grip her hips, pulling her body down on top of his.
Bella stretched out against Tommy so they’re toe to toe and nose to nose, his legs parting to let her fall between them. Bella fit so perfectly on his body that it honestly made her shiver. She curled her fingers in Tommy’s gorgeous blond locks and tugged gently. He moaned in to her mouth and she swallowed down the sound.
Their kisses were desperate, needy, wanting. Bella felt ravenous for the bass player, for his touch, his kisses, his entire body. It felt like it’d been years and not just five days since they’d been together, and that one night was just not enough for her. Bella could feel Tommy’s need radiating from him. The way his hands gripped her hips, tangled in her hair, and pulled at the hem of her shirt.
Bella sat up, straddling Tommy’s hips, and crossed her arms over her stomach, grabbing the hem of her tee, and whipped it off over her head. She grinned at Tommy as his eyes wandered over the naked skin she’d just revealed. His hands cupped her face for a moment before softly trailing down her neck, shoulders, arms and over to her ribs, just below her bra. His fingertips skittered down the bumps of her ribs and down her soft stomach, finally finding the waist of her jeans. Bella slapped at his hands. “Nuh-uh,” she told him. “Tit for tat, it’s only fair.”
Tommy grinned and sat up, pulling his shirt over his head and tossed it aside. “How’s that?” he asked.
“Mm, much better,” Bella purred, reaching out to touch the smooth plain of skin before her. She tweaked Tommy’s nipples a bit roughly, making him toss his head back with a moan. Bella took this opportunity to lean in and lick a stripe up his throat from the dip in his collarbone all the way up to his chin; only stopping momentarily to suck at his Adam’s apple.
Tommy sighed quietly and looked at Bella, his hands coming up to cup her face gently. He stroked his thumb over her cheekbone, staring in to her emerald eyes. “What?” she murmured when he didn’t say anything.
Tommy shook his head, a smile on his face. “It’s just… this all seems so surreal. Being here with you, meeting you. It’s crazy and dream-like and… I don’t think I could have wished for anything better.”
“Shouldn’t I be the one saying that, Mr. Rock Star, bass player for Adam Lambert?” Bella grinned.
Tommy shrugged. “Probably, but…”
“But what?” she asked.
“You’re everything I’ve been looking for,” he answered softly.
“Tommy, it’s only been five days,” she responded. “And this is only the second time we’ve seen each other.”
“It doesn’t matter,” he said. “I just know that I’m going to be very upset when you leave in the morning.”
Bella pets his hair and kissed his forehead. “We still have all night,” she murmured. Tommy nodded and Bella climbed off him, laying down on her side. Tommy laid down also, turning on his side to face her. He pushed her hair back from her eyes and smiled at her. Bella wrapped her arms around Tommy’s waist pulling him against her, his lips just a breath away from hers. “I love the way you kiss me,” she told him quietly.
“I love the way you taste,” he replied. Then his lips were on hers, his tongue delving in her mouth. Bella moaned quietly in the back of her throat and, god, she could never get enough of it. Tommy tasted so sweet like he’d been sucking on hard candy all day or eating pure sugar, either way it was heaven to Bella. She loved the way his tongue searched her mouth as if he was trying to kiss her to death. And when it tickled the roof of her mouth, she moaned, her hips instinctively jerking towards his.
Tommy slid his hands down her sides until he found her hips, gripping them tightly enough to bruise but Bella didn’t seem to mind. It was so easy with the beautiful man that she didn’t even mind the extra pounds around her waist hanging there like an unwanted belt of fat. He treated her in a way that made her forget her pudgy belly and the scars from years of cutting or the ones left by stretch marks lining that pudgy belly of hers.
Tommy’s hands roamed Bella’s back as he continued to kiss her like this would be the last time they’d ever get to. Then his hands found the clasp on her bra, unhooked it, pulled it down her arms and tossed it away. He kept his mouth on hers as he tweaked her nipples, rolling them gently between his thumb and forefinger till they were hard nubs and Bella was writhing against his slender body.
Bella pulled back, breathing deeply, trying to catch her breath. Tommy took that moment to lean down and surround one pert nipple with his mouth, still applying his torturous rolling and pinching to the other with his talented fingers. Bella weaved her hands through his hair, cradling his head against her chest. He licked and sucked at her nipple till she was whining with the pleasure, then he moved to the other one, providing the same attention.
Tommy kissed his way up Bella’s breast bone, throat, chin and then landed on her lips. She moaned, pulling him closer by his blond locks, and threw a leg over his hip. He reached down, grasping her thigh, pulling their lower halves together. The pair moaned as Tommy’s erection rubbed against Bella’s jean-clad center and, god! She just wanted out of her pants!
Bella reached down to the button on her jeans but Tommy slapped her hand away. He deftly popped the button from the hole and slowly slid the zipper down. He pushed Bella’s jeans down to her thighs and did the same with her panties. She whined as she tried to wriggle the rest of the way out of them. Tommy giggled against her mouth, then pulled away, pushing her on to her back, to peel the remaining clothes off her legs.
Tommy settled on top of Bella, resuming the kiss. Bella moaned, wrapping her legs around Tommy’s waist, grinding her hips in to him. She could feel his hard length through his tight jeans and it just made her grind harder, wanting to feel more. “Please,” Bella murmured in to his mouth, reaching down, but his hand got there first, expertly popping the button and unzipping the fly. Bella dug in to Tommy’s boxer-briefs, wrapping her long fingers around his dripping length. She slid her hand up to his tip and rubbed the dribble of pre-cum in to the delicate skin there. Tommy moaned in to Bella’s mouth, bucking his hips in to her hand. Then he was pulling away and Bella whimpered at the loss. But as soon as his pants and briefs were off, he was right back on top of Bella, kissing and grinding.
Tommy’s hand wandered down Bella’s side and over to the inside of her thigh. She trembled with anticipation. His fingers slipped between her folds, gentle pressure against her clit, and she felt like she could lose it any second. “Oh god, Tommy,” she murmured, gasping at the end when he pressed his thumb a little harder against her pleasure spot. Bella pulled him down for a hard, urgent kiss as his fingers stroked her clitoris. Bella held the back of Tommy’s head with one hand, keeping him in place, then wrapped her other hand around the base of his cock. She stroked him with long, slow strokes until he whined, bucking his hips. Bella sped up the pace of her hand, squeezing and twisting in all the right places it seemed by the little moans and purrs he was making against her mouth.
Bella gasped as Tommy quickly slid a long finger inside of her, then drew back and plunged it back in, essentially fucking her with the slender digit. She stroked him faster, her thumb rubbing over his slit. He moaned and rewarded her with a second finger. Bella mimicked Tommy’s vocal outcries as she pushed herself down hard on his fingers, loving the way he curled them to find that spot that would make stars explode behind her eyelids.
They broke their kiss at the same time, panting and gulping for air. Tommy laid his forehead against Bella’s shoulder, grinding in to her hand at the same speed he was fucking her with his two… Oh god, now three, fingers. Bella dug my fingers in to his hair and twisted the hand she had around his erection. He cried out as he exploded in her hand and all over her thighs. Bella whimpered at the sound and at the feeling of Tommy’s cum coating her skin. Tommy pulled away then, removing his hand from between her legs. Bella whimpered again, moving her hips to try to find his fingers again, wanting to impale herself on them.
But Tommy just lifted her hand, the one coated in his climax, and slowly, seductively licked every last drop from her fingers. Bella watched him from hooded eyes, moaning quietly, her hand trailing down her stomach. It stopped though when Tommy bent down to lick his cum from between her thighs. Bella moaned a little louder that time and spread her legs wider.
When she was all clean, Tommy gave her a devilish grin, then dove between her legs, licking her clit hard and fast, nipping lightly with his teeth and sucking at it. Bella cried out loudly as the pleasure burst through her all at once. Then Tommy’s tongue moved down to her entrance and he shoved it inside of her, licking and fucking her with the pink muscle until she cried his name. Tommy lapped up her sweet juices, letting it wash over his tongue. He hummed appreciatively, licking until Bella was too sensitive to take it anymore and tugged on his hair. Tommy got the hint, crawling up her body and kissed her hard, working his tongue in to her mouth. Tasting a mixture of Tommy and her own self on Tommy’s tongue made her moan and suck hard on his tongue, wanting every last bit of flavor all to herself.
After a few moments of this hard kissing, Tommy slowly and gently brought it to a peck. He nuzzled against Bella’s neck, then moved to pull the blankets down, allowing her to crawl beneath them. He slipped between the sheets, laying flush on top of Bella, burying his face in her neck. She pet his hair lovingly as she tried to calm her frenzied heart. This had been an amazing experience and she was so glad she had gotten to share it with Tommy. He was perfect… he was perfect for her. But I’ll keep that to myself for now, she thought.
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Stay Tuned for Chapter Four!
Stay Tuned for Chapter Four!
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