Glamberts Big Bang Chapter 14

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Title/Chapter: Kiss Away the Pain (14/16+Epilogue)
Author: amanda: jaclyn’s twin sister
Beta: mindchnger
Artists: peculiar_mind / gargoyles42 /
Fandom: American Idol
Pairing: Adam Lambert / OFC [Luxe]
Rating: R
P.O.V.: First Person, Adam Lambert, OFC: Luxe (clearly marked)
Warning: Strong Language, non-graphic sexual situations
Word Count: 1,692
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Summary: Luxe and Adam have been best friends since Hollywood Week, but now that tour rehearsals have begun, Adam is finding out things he'd never know about his friend. Things that no one should have to go through. Can Adam be her Knight in Shining Armor? Or will he be the support Luxe needs to overcome her fears and help herself?

ADAM’S POV

I watch as the room gets lighter and lighter as the sun rises. Luxe has finally stopped crying, but neither of us has slept. I’m in such a bitchy mood it’s not even funny. When Luxe sits up and rubs at her eyes, I sit up too. “Why the hell are you so upset about Jackson’s death? I thought you hated him,” I growl angrily.

Luxe looks at me and blinks a few times. “Lets not get in to this right now, Adam,” she sighs.

“No. We will get in to this now!” I exclaim. “You seem too upset over losing this scumbag. It’s like you’re mourning the death of someone you love. You didn’t sleep all night, all you have done is cry. What the fuck is your problem?!”

Luxe sighs again and scrubs her face with her hands. “I get why you’re so upset,” she says. “You haven’t slept at all either, have you?” I just grunt, folding my arms over my chest. “Listen, Adam, I have a right to be so completely upset. I killed a man.”

“But it was self-defense!” I protest.

“That doesn’t make me feel any less guilty,” she replies. “Also, I can’t stop crying because I’m so relieved. I won’t…” Her voice cracks and tears fill her eyes. “I won’t have to deal with him anymore. I won’t have to be scared anymore. I’ll never have to go to court again to renew my restraining order. I’m free, Adam. For the first time since I was a teenager, I’m free. Can you understand that?”

A thought occurs to me then. The threat against her life is gone. She’s not the only one that gets to stop worrying. I get to stop worrying too. I don’t have to worry that every time she’s out of my sight that she could be in danger no matter how many handlers are around her. I don’t have to be scared of not being able to protect her. She protected herself and she’s safe now. Completely safe.

Relief and exhaustion hit me all at once and I begin to cry. Luxe throws herself at me and we hang on tightly to each other while we weep with relief.


LUXE’S POV

Management has decided to postpone one of our shows to the day after it was planned so we get an extra day off in a row. They say they want to give me a little time to relax and heal from the traumatizing events of the previous night. I’m definitely relieved that we get two days off in a row. I really need the time to myself and especially time with Adam. We’re both so relieved that we don’t have to worry about Jackson anymore that all the stress has finally gotten to us. I think we’ll probably sleep most of the day away.

When we all get on the buses to head to our next destination, Adam and I crawl in to his bunk. He spoons me, wrapping his long frame around my shorter one. “I love you, Luxe,” he murmurs, kissing the back of my neck.

I reach down to pull his arms tighter around me. “I love you too, Adam,” I reply. “Are you happy now?”

I feel him nod. “Mostly tired though… and relieved. I don’t have to worry about you anymore,” he says. “And I won’t have to be hovering around you anymore. I can give you space.”

“Thanks,” I whisper. “But right now, I don’t want there to be any space between us. I just need to feel you wrapped around me.”

Adam curls closer. “How’s this?” he asks.

“Perfect,” I murmur, my eyes sliding shut. Soon we’re both fast asleep and don’t wake until the bus stops outside of our hotel.

Once we’re in our room, I flop down on our large bed. I stare up at the ceiling, my eyes filling with tears. There are so many emotions flowing through me that I couldn’t pinpoint which one is the actual cause of my crying. Adam doesn’t say a word, just climbs in to bed with me, holding me close until I cry myself to sleep.

When I wake, the sun is beginning to set outside of our windows. I carefully climb from the bed, trying not to disturb Adam. I’m half way to the balcony when he speaks. “Where are you going?” he asks, his voice rough from all the crying and sleeping.

“Balcony,” I murmur. “To watch the sun set.” Then I continue to make my way outside.

When I step out on to the balcony, my breath catches in my throat. We have such a beautiful view of the desert from here and the sun setting makes it even more gorgeous. The horizon is filled with beautiful pinks, oranges, blues, and purples with dark silhouettes of the red rock mountains. It’s a breathtaking sight to behold.

I go back inside to grab my camera and Adam follows me back out to the balcony. “Whoa,” he murmurs. “That’s just…”

“I know,” I nod. I put my camera settings on Night Time Landscape and hold it up, focusing on the mountain silhouettes and the colors swirling around them. I snap a few pictures before putting my camera back in the room. When I come back outside, Adam gestures for me to stand in front of him. I do so and am rewarded with his arms wrapping around me from behind. I lean back against his strong chest as we silently watch the sun go down behind the desert mountains.

Gently, Adam turns me around to face him. He strokes my cheek lightly and tucks my hair behind my ear. Then he frames my face with his large hands and leans in to kiss me. As our mouths mold together there’s this fierce feeling of being connected to each other, mind, heart and soul. The only thing that’s missing is body. I’m not exactly sure what’s changed, maybe it’s the fact that all our fears have finally disappeared, but whatever it is it makes me want Adam more than anything right now. All of him.

I guide Adam back in to our room and over to our bed. I climb up and he crawls up next to me. I pull him on top of me as I lean back against the pillows and kiss him softly, licking in to his mouth. After a few moments he pulls back and looks at me with questioning blue eyes. “I think it’s time,” I answer his unspoken question.

“Really?” he asks quietly. I nod, pushing him back as I sit up. I grab the hem of my shirt and slowly pull it off over my head, tossing it on to the floor beside the bed. I remove my bra next and then pull him with me as I lay back against the pillows again, not feeling any ounce of fear or anxiety.

“Do you remember my rules?” I ask him.

He nods. “Do you remember mine?” I nod. He smiles softly at me, caressing my cheek. Then he lifts his shirt off, tossing it towards mine. Then he gently lays down on top of me, his hips fitting perfectly between my legs. “I love you,” he whispers. “You’re my world.”

“I love you too,” I reply softly. “You are the reason I get up in the morning.” Then our lips touch, moving gently in a dance that only we know.

Adam is so gentle with me. Every kiss, every touch, every caress. As we strip each other of our remaining clothes it suddenly dawns on me, this isn’t sex. This is making love. My heart swells with so much love and affection for the man on top of me that it spills down my cheeks in little rivers of tears. Adam looks at me in alarm. “Are you okay?”

I nod, smiling at him. “I’m perfectly fine.”

“Then why are you crying?” he asks.

“Because for the first time in a very long time, I feel completely and absolutely loved,” I explain. “And the best part of it all, is that I feel so safe and trust you so much right now. I know without a doubt that you won’t hurt me.”

Adam smiles, tears in his eyes. “You are loved,” he tells me. “You are safe. Completely and utterly.”

“Make love to me,” I murmur.

“I will,” Adam replies softly. Then he kisses me, slowly and gently. He enters me in the same way.

I cry tears of joy and pleasure as he rocks his hips in to me, whispering how much he loves me and how good I feel wrapped around him. I utter the same things to him, urging him to move faster, to move harder, all at my own pace. He takes his cues from me and it’s an amazing experience bringing me complete pleasure, crying out when my orgasm takes over me.

I bury my face in Adam’s neck, panting as I lick and kiss and suck on his pulse. “I love you,” I murmur. “I love you and I want you to cum inside me.” Adam groans loudly at my words, his muscles straining with the orgasm ripping through him. I feel his warm seed fill me up, the sensation spurring another climax in me. He pumps his hips a few more times, riding out his pleasure. Then he collapses on top of me, kissing away the tears that are falling down my cheeks.

“I love you,” he pants. “I love you so much. So very much.”

“I love you too,” I tell him. “Forever and ever.”

Adam kisses my mouth gently, breathing heavily through his nose. Then he moves down my body, his spent cock slipping from inside me making me moan at the loss. He pulls the blankets over us and lays with his head positioned over my heart. I hold him close trying to regulate my breathing. But in a way, I don’t want to. I haven’t felt this much pleasure in so many years, I don’t want it to ever end. With Adam, maybe it won’t have to.