Accepting Trust - Ch. 5
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writefictionTitle: Accepting Trust
Chapter: 5 - benji's confession
Author:![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
writefiction |aka| punksoul
Pairing: slight Seb/Benji
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimor: I own no one. This is complete Fiction.
Summary: Benji's the punk the new kid at school learns to trust. There's an instant connection, an instant attraction [could I make that more lame?]
Dedication: To my two wonderful reviewers:mickey_mouse133 & pierre1
Previous Chapters: One, Two, Three, Four
Comments are always appreciated :)
CHAPTER FIVE: benji's confession
Benji holds me for a long time. I end up calling my parents to say I'm staying over. Of course they're thrilled.
As I strip down to my boxers, Benji speaks.
"You can have the bed." I look at him.
"What?"
"You can have the bed. I'll crash on the floor."
"Don't be stupid, Benji," I say as I slide beneath the blankets. I pat the space beside me. Benji scratches his elbow, then climbs in bed.
I turn on my side to face my friend. He turns off the bedside light before laying down facing me.
"Benj?"
"Yeah?"
"How is your mom about you being gay?" I ask.
"Well, at first she was kind of upset because I could never get married," Benji explained. "But I told her it was okay. I don't need a legal document stating I'm committing my life to someone. After I told her that, she felt better about it. Told me the only thing that really mattered to her was that I was happy." He shrugs.
"Wow. I wish she was my mom," I reply.
"I don't," Benji states.
"Why?" I ask.
"Because we'd be brothers," Benji answers simply.
"Why's that bad?"
"Because it's a sin to feel the way I feel about you for your brother." I blink. Then I move in, touching my lips to Benji's. His lips move against mine, but he doesn't force me to deepen the kiss.
I pull away slowly.
"What was that?" Benji asks quietly.
"I-I don't know," I stutter. "I shouldn't have done that. I have a boyfriend." Benji strokes my hair.
"It's okay, Seb, really," he tells me. I rub my face and sigh.
"Lets just go to sleep," I say.
"Okay," Benji replies. I pull the blankets around me tighter and close my eyes.
"Goodnight, Benj."
"Night, Seb."
I blink my eyes, slowly waking up. I find myself curled up on Benji's chest. It feels so good to be snuggled with him. I close my eyes and press closer.
I slowly move my hand up and down his side.
"Mmm. Seb," Benji murmurs. I lift my head to look at him.
"You awake?" I ask quietly. Benji nods slowly. I make a fist and rest my chin on it, staring up at my half asleep friend.
I reach up to stroke his cheek. Benji sighs. Then he takes my wrist and kisses my palm. He laces our fingers together and suddenly I feel like we've been lovers for years, waking up this same way.
"Good morning," I finally say, leaning up on impulse to kiss him softly.
Benji smiles as I pull away, his eyes opening slowly.
"What was that for?" he rasps. I shrug. "We should do it again some time." I chew my lip a little.
"Benji...About last night-" Benji puts his finger to my lips, shushing me.
"Don't say anything," he says quietly. "Don't ruin the moment. Just let me hold you." I move over so I'm completely on top of Benji. Then I slide up his body so I can rest my head on the pillow next to his. I pull the blankets up to my shoulders and Benji wraps his arm around me tightly. I relax into the embrace.
Benji should have let me speak. If he had, he would have known that I wasn't going to ruin the moment. It would have been far from ruining. If he'd only listened.
Stay Tuned for Chapter 6!
[trust]
Coming Soon!
Reviews are lovely ♥
Chapter: 5 - benji's confession
Author:
writefiction |aka| punksoulPairing: slight Seb/Benji
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimor: I own no one. This is complete Fiction.
Summary: Benji's the punk the new kid at school learns to trust. There's an instant connection, an instant attraction [could I make that more lame?]
Dedication: To my two wonderful reviewers:
mickey_mouse133 & pierre1Previous Chapters: One, Two, Three, Four
Comments are always appreciated :)
CHAPTER FIVE: benji's confession
Benji holds me for a long time. I end up calling my parents to say I'm staying over. Of course they're thrilled.
As I strip down to my boxers, Benji speaks.
"You can have the bed." I look at him.
"What?"
"You can have the bed. I'll crash on the floor."
"Don't be stupid, Benji," I say as I slide beneath the blankets. I pat the space beside me. Benji scratches his elbow, then climbs in bed.
I turn on my side to face my friend. He turns off the bedside light before laying down facing me.
"Benj?"
"Yeah?"
"How is your mom about you being gay?" I ask.
"Well, at first she was kind of upset because I could never get married," Benji explained. "But I told her it was okay. I don't need a legal document stating I'm committing my life to someone. After I told her that, she felt better about it. Told me the only thing that really mattered to her was that I was happy." He shrugs.
"Wow. I wish she was my mom," I reply.
"I don't," Benji states.
"Why?" I ask.
"Because we'd be brothers," Benji answers simply.
"Why's that bad?"
"Because it's a sin to feel the way I feel about you for your brother." I blink. Then I move in, touching my lips to Benji's. His lips move against mine, but he doesn't force me to deepen the kiss.
I pull away slowly.
"What was that?" Benji asks quietly.
"I-I don't know," I stutter. "I shouldn't have done that. I have a boyfriend." Benji strokes my hair.
"It's okay, Seb, really," he tells me. I rub my face and sigh.
"Lets just go to sleep," I say.
"Okay," Benji replies. I pull the blankets around me tighter and close my eyes.
"Goodnight, Benj."
"Night, Seb."
I blink my eyes, slowly waking up. I find myself curled up on Benji's chest. It feels so good to be snuggled with him. I close my eyes and press closer.
I slowly move my hand up and down his side.
"Mmm. Seb," Benji murmurs. I lift my head to look at him.
"You awake?" I ask quietly. Benji nods slowly. I make a fist and rest my chin on it, staring up at my half asleep friend.
I reach up to stroke his cheek. Benji sighs. Then he takes my wrist and kisses my palm. He laces our fingers together and suddenly I feel like we've been lovers for years, waking up this same way.
"Good morning," I finally say, leaning up on impulse to kiss him softly.
Benji smiles as I pull away, his eyes opening slowly.
"What was that for?" he rasps. I shrug. "We should do it again some time." I chew my lip a little.
"Benji...About last night-" Benji puts his finger to my lips, shushing me.
"Don't say anything," he says quietly. "Don't ruin the moment. Just let me hold you." I move over so I'm completely on top of Benji. Then I slide up his body so I can rest my head on the pillow next to his. I pull the blankets up to my shoulders and Benji wraps his arm around me tightly. I relax into the embrace.
Benji should have let me speak. If he had, he would have known that I wasn't going to ruin the moment. It would have been far from ruining. If he'd only listened.
[trust]
Coming Soon!
Reviews are lovely ♥
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