He just do what he please

[writefiction]

Fuck. I've been awake since 2:30 this morning. I got up to pee and the next thing I knew I couldn't get back to sleep. Now it's 5:33 AM. I ate a bowel of cereal, I smoke a few cigarettes, I turned the tv off and turned on my iPod. Usually my idol boys can put me easily to sleep. Not this time. The only thing I haven't tried is a shower but I don't really feel up to getting out of the bed.

I'm so frustrated to the point that I keep crying. My sleeping pattern has been so fucked up lately. Sunday I went to bed and fell asleep sometime before two. Then I didn't get up till 2 o'clock in the afternoon on Monday! 12+ hours straight of sleep! How fucking crazy is that?! Then Monday I never went to bed. I stayed up for 24 hours, took about an hours nap and was back up the rest of the day. So I went to bed, fell asleep rather quickly, probably cuz I didn't feel good. Then I got up around one yesterday only because my mom called me; I had an appointment in an hour O_O not enough time for me to wake up and get myself ready. But somehow I managed. Deathly tires last night when I went to bed. Fell asleep really quickly. But around 2:30 I woke up having to potty. I haven't slept since.

This sleeping pattern is driving me insane. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have appointments to be ready for. I'm so frustrated I keep crying. It's not fun.

Well I'm going to see if I can go to sleep now. I'm feeling a little drowsy now. Wish me luck.

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