Sprints

So last night I was kicked out of the community hanficsprints. It is a group of girls that all have a common interest in writing Hanfic. Usually wiriting sprints are only held during NaNoWriMo, but this group decided that it'd be cool if we did it all year round. It's been super fun actually! But I was kicked out because I pissed two of the girls off.


There used to be a poll here, but since no one wanted to participate in it and the ones that did voted NO for everything, I've taken it down.

The end.

RANT. RANT. RANT. RANT.

My mom pisses me off so badly right now. She treats me like I'm five and not TWENTY-FIVE. She said I could get a psychiatric service dog but only because the waiting list is 3 - 5 years and she expects one of our animals to die before then. But it's not like we can afford the 3 - 6,ooo dollars it takes to get one. So really there's no possibility of that happening. Also, my fucking guinea pig gets on my nerves more and more each day. He won't let me handle him and I adopted him on March 8th. When I tried to hold him just now he bit my nipple and broke the skin through the fucking shirt.

I'd rather have rats or a chihuahua. Especially a chihuahua because Mufin is thinking of breeding her dog with the neighbor's dog and she gets pick of the litter. She's already told me that I could have one if it was alright with my mom. But it'll never be alright with my mom.

Then Monday night I decided to host my own early sprints because hanficsprints has fucked around with the schedule AGAIN and now I can only sprint, like, one a week. So I was telling my friend on twitter about how I didn't know what to do without the sprints. She asked me if that meant I couldn't write and I told her that sprinting wasn't just about writing, it was about socializing too and now I don't have that. So prettyzombiegrl interupts our conversation saything they're STILL hosting sprints it's just at a later time (midnight) and that I'm lucky I can make it to one because other people couldn't make it at all. So I told her to stop using her baby as an excuse to keep putting the time further back. This is what she had to say to me.....

RENEE P: OK you stupid bitch back the fuck off and keep my daughter out of this!!! I haven't called you a damn thing, but now that we're on the subject lose some fucking weight!!! I stopped talking when you said leave it and I dropped it... (which she didn't do, she actually tweeted me some more... oh and this is an IM) If you ever had a kid, lord help us! You'll understand but until you get up off  of your ass and start doing something with your life you have no room to bitch about something I FUCKING STARTED!!!

ME: your daughter is always your fucking excuse for everything. It's not like there aren't other people in your house that could help you.

RENEE P: actually there aren't. Rance has a lot of shit going on, my mom goes to bed early and everyone else works. You don't know me or my life or what the fuck is going on with it.

ME: and no, I'll never have kids becasue I know how fucking hard it is and I have the worst genes in the world and I'm on medicine for the rest of my life that could KILL any baby I have so fuck you.

RENEE P: I have taken time out of my fucking life to host sprints for OTHER people and you have to ruin shit

ME: then put your kid to bed earlier!

RENEE P: hahah ok amanda sucks to be you. go kill yourself.

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So you know what I did? I cried my eyes out for about five minutes. Then I crept downstairs and took around 60 sleeping pills at about 1:00o'clock in the morning. At 7am my mom came to get me to do my final urine collection and she noticed she couldn't wake me. Then she noticed the bottle of pills downstairs was empty. She called 9-1-1 and well, I don't really know what happened. I just remember coming home and flopping down on the couch. It'd been so long since I'd taken the pills they couldn't pump my stomach or make me drink charcoal. I guess they told my mom to let me just sleep it off.

Well, today is Wednesday and I'm still walking around like a drunk sailor and things (like the computer screen) are still pretty blury. I have more typos now that I've had in my entire life. I wish I would have died and I wish that my mom had gotten on the phone with Renee and bitched her out for what she'd done to me.

And oh, by the way, I'm not fat because I want to. I took medication that made me balloon from 127 to 150 in four weeks. Every since then my wait keeps going up and up and there's really nothing I can do. I eat right because of my cholesterol, but eating healthy doesn't work. I need to start working out on my wii but it's still in the living room and not in the basement where it's nice and cool.

Also, because I pissed off prettyzombiegrl AND mizzc I got deleted from the hanficsprints community! WTF is up with that?! No one else has a problem with me as far as I know. And also, as far as I know, they didn't discuss it with anyone else about deleting me. So I added myself back because it's OPEN MEMBERSHIP! So a big FUCK YOU to them.

That's it....... for now.

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• 00:19 Why is it that my mom always finds me when I try to kill me mysel. Another reason I wishedi lived alone #
• 08:58 @scorptwitr did u get my dm the other day? #
• 12:28 @scorptwitr ok #
• 12:42 @scorptwitr you can email me if it's too long for twitter. #
• 12:55 I'm still really groggy and the computer is still kinda blurry. This kinda sucks. #
• 14:58 @markymoco yes I'm okay. Spent the day in the ER. #
• 15:25 on the phone with my daddy :D #
• 15:46 @VIIIDestinyXIII better. Just hung up with my daddy. He got his father's day card :D #
• 15:55 @VIIIDestinyXIII yeah, I went to the er Tuesday AM around 7 & stayed till about 2pm #
• 16:07 potato salad for the latest lunch everrrrrrr! #
• 16:12 @rainbowmissy haha #
• 16:13 @nisforneville I had breakfast at, like 8am and haven't eaten since and then my Dad was talking about food and it got me hungry. lol #
• 16:18 @nisforneville yes, snack = good #
• 16:41 @fpoetic hey, I sent you a PM on livejournal. Please get back to me ASAP. Thanks :D #
• 16:53 potato salad was yummmmmy! Get to have more for dinner + hot dogs in buns! Yay! #
• 16:56 @rainbowmissy lol #
• 17:16 @fpoetic The earthquake was 5.9 & stated in Canada & could be felt here in NH but I, of course, didn't feel it. I never feel the earthquakes #
• 17:53 @scorptwitr have fun bb! #
• 17:58 @fpoetic did you get my PM on livejournal? #
• 18:10 @fpoetic I replied back #
• 18:29 @scorptwitr I miss you. I could have really used you Monday night. It was a horrible night. #
• 18:59 @scorptwitr I ended up in the hospital :/ #
• 19:04 @scorptwitr I only stayed for the day. #
• 19:23 Ooops! That was supposed to be tweeted through flamingo_punk! ooops! #
• 19:30 @scorptwitr ooooooh! Niiiiiiiiiiiice! #
• 19:31 @scorptwitr I'll tell you more about it in an email....... #
• 19:41 Take my poll!!!!!! ---> tinyurl.com/29hnwmb #
• 19:58 @rainbowmissy lol #
• 20:12 why are people answering my poll that don't even write? (besides one) #
• 20:13 People that I don't even know! #
• 20:13 Or follow on twitter or follow me? #
• 20:26 @rainbowmissy well, now I'm ina bad mood and it's all my mom's fault #
• 20:28 @rainbowmissy my ma is just being a bitch. #
• 20:37 @rainbowmissy she's treating me like I'm 5 and now 25 #
• 20:37 NOT******* #
• 20:40 @rainbowmissy thanks #
• 22:11 @scorptwitr I need you...... #

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