shame on you, you fool me once

To-Do List

1). Shower

2). Get dressed

3). Blow dry hair

4). Med Check Appointment

5). Go with Mom to get her tires fixed

6). Therapy Appointment

7). Check mail for Hanson Book (b/c apparently USPS processed & sent it out yesterday from Springfield Mass) (it didn't come)

8). Rip All Wrapped Up CD to iTunes (prep for thanksgiving)

9). Load Holiday Tunes playlist on to iPod Touch (prep for thanksgiving)

10). Make origami turkeys (prep for thanksgiving)


I really don't think I have enough to do *eyeroll*

This has been floating around so I thought I'd jump on the bandwagon.

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Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People Right Now:
10. I've had the hugest crush on you for the past four years.
09. Throw him the fuck out already!!!!!
08. I miss you.
07. We need to hang out, like, now.
06. Sometimes I just want to get away from you.
05. You're selfish, money hungry, and ungrateful.
04. I hate the affect you've had on my life.
03. Why can't our relationship be like it used to be?
02. If you weren't my friend's boyfriend, I wouldn't give you a second glance, or a first for that matter.
01. I've wanted you since we were 13.

Nine Things About Myself:
09. My hair is originally blond.
08. I have an obsession with flamingos.
07. I have Agoraphobia, but I love going to concerts.
06. I live with my mom and cat.
05. I burn easily.
04. I'm not always happy with who I am and what I'm doing.
03. I have low self-esteem.
02. I sing loudly when I'm alone.
01. I'm scared.

Eight Ways to Win My Heart:
08. love me for real.
07. buy me chocolate.
06. respect me.
05. be a gentleman.
04. make me laugh.
03. don't make me cry.
02. be honest.
01. go slow.

Seven Things That Cross My Mind a Lot:
07. I'm going to die alone....except for my eleventy-seven cats.
06. I need to lose weight.
05. I need to quit smoking.
04. Why is "normal" so hard?
03. No one will ever love me.
02. I quit Riverbend.
01. People are stupid.

Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep:
06. Take my pills.
05. Smoke last butt.
04. Go peeeee.
03. Get a bottle of water.
02. Put my nightguard on.
01. Put my tv on the Disney Channel.

Five People Who Mean a Lot:
05. Mom
04. Jeff
03. Jaclyn Photographs
02. Joyce
01. Emilie

Four Things You're Wearing Right Now:
04. My glasses.
03. Super Bowl XXXVIII shirt, Patriots vs. Panthers
02. Amethyst ring.
01. Black shorts.

Three Songs That You Listen to Often (Currently):
03. Everything on Cas Haley's CD
02. Burnin' Up by Jonas Brothers
01. 7 Things by Miley Cyrus

Two Things You Want to Do Before You Die:
02. find true love.
01. be okay with life.

One Confession:
01. I only let people on LiveJournal read my stories.

So Memorial Day weekend, my mom and I are having a graduation party for her friend Jeff. Last Thursday was his last class. He now has an associates degree in business-something-or-other. The other day the three of us decided that we want to drink margaritas at the party. Jeff wants to kinda get drunk. Or just tipsy. I don't really know. But anyway... Last night my mom came up with a great idea. Make a mix CD of drinking songs. Then she added graduation songs. And then Dance songs. This is the list of songs she came up with. If anyone has any good ideas for other songs, let me know. Oh, and if anyone can tell me the name of the drinking song Stephen Kellogg & The Sixers played at Hampton Beach, that would be amazing. The chorus was something like, I'll bring the moonshine you bring the cups.

On to the list.....


Drinking Songs
Tequila Sunrise

Double Vision (foreigner)

Family Tradition (hank williams jr)

Bring Me Two Pina Coladas (garth brooks)

Margaritaville (jimmy buffet)

Escape—The Pina Colada Song (rupert holmes)

Chug A Lug (roger miller)

Friends In Low Places (garth brooks ?)

It's 5 O'clock Somewhere

Ten Rounds with Jose Cuervo

Lets Get Stoned (ray charles)

I'm Gonna Hire A Wino To Decorate Our Home


Graduation Songs
School's Out (alice cooper)

Graduation Day (beach boys)

Little Help From My Friends (beatles)

We Are The Champions (queen)

I Believe I Can Fly (r. kelly) (totally crossing this off the list)

Fly Like an Eagle (steve miller band)

Time of Your Life (green day) (pretty sure this one is supposed to say good ridance)


Dance Songs
Get The Party Started (pink)

Barbie Girl (aqua)

I'm Too Sexy

I Love Rock'n'Roll

YMCA (village people)

Pink Cadillac

Old Time Rock & Roll

Jump <-(there's so many songs with that name, it would have been helpful if she'd written down who it was by)



So that's the list. If you'd like to contribute, leave a comment. Any suggestions would be much appreciated! =D

love,
amanda: jaclyn's twin sister

Alrighty. Here we go. Know how a couple months ago I was all, 2007 is the year of death? Yeah, well it's happening again. Not that many of the people dying this year are people I'm friends with. Most of them actors. But still. So here's how it goes.

& Sam the Butcher from The Brady Bunch

& Susan Pleshette

& Brad Renfro

& Heath Ledger

& Elsie Keefe (lady from my church)

& Crazy Sherry (my mom's friend)

& Mark's Mom (eventually)


Explanation? Sure.

Apparently Crazy Sherry died in, like, November and my mom didn't tell me b/c so many people were dying. She just told me last night. And she also told me about Elsie Keefe. And then last night we also found out that Mark's mom is dying.

Last year she was diagnosed with cancer. She had a tumor in her brain. She had it removed and did chemo. A couple weeks ago, she went into the hospital to have fluid drained from her lungs. The cancer has come back and it's spreading. Apparently she knew this as far back as November. She told everyone except Mark. I think he only found out b/c of her latest hospital visit and the fact that they're sending her home with hospice nurses.

I thought 2008 was going to be different. Jeff's brother was the Christmas Miracle. One day he was on life support, having strokes, and the family was thinking about pulling the plug. A week later he woke up, was breathing on his own and wanted a cigarette. I thought he had changed everything. I thought that b/c he didn't die that this would give 2008 a fresh start. Maybe people I knew wouldn't die. But then all these actors started dying. Then Elsie and then my mom tells me about Crazy Sherry. And she totally counts for 2008 b/c that's when I found out about her. I just want to crawl into a hole and never come out. But there's nothing I can really do about it. People die. It's how things work. But really, it shouldn't be so many people all at once. Give people time to get over one death before having another. But no, not me. But, whatever.

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So on to a different topic.

This week is crazy. Here's another list.


Monday + therapy

Tuesday + Med Check

Wednesday + Dinner @ the Neighbors'

Thursday + Cholesterol Clinic

Friday + Eye Doctor's


So that's my crazy week. Plus, we're going grocery shopping today after my med check. So that's even more. Hopefully next week will be better b/c all I have is therapy, case management, and then Thursday I get to party, party, party! Going to dinner and a movie! Mom and I are going to Newicks. They just opened one in Concord. It's where Smokey Bones used to be. And the movie....Well, it's totally a guilty pleasure, but it's that Hannah Montana / Miley Cyrus / Jonas Brothers concert thing. Srsly. I can't help myself. They're actually really good singers.

Anyway. I need to get caught up on Plaything and then think about showering and getting dressed and maybe having something to eat. Ugh. I wish I could just stay in my p.jamas all day.


xoxo, amanda: jaclyn's twin sister

I went through all the prompts that all_unwritten has ever had and I wrote down the ones I'm most interested in. So here's the list. The ones crossed out are the ones I've already written for.

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Prompt #1: in the beginning

Prompt #7: I was 14 when...

Prompt #8: heat

Prompt #9: crash

Prompt #12: luck

Prompt #17: wound

Prompt #18: the window rattled

Prompt #19: I heard her that morning

Prompt #20: I'll put his picture down and maybe / get some sleep tonight - Teardrops on My Guitar by Taylor Swift

Prompt #21: pages scattered about the floor

Prompt #22: Dear ________,

Prompt #23: layer of dust

Prompt #29: The end of summer

Prompt #33: and it was enough to make him cry

Prompt #37: meant to be

Prompt #38: the scars we bare

Prompt #39: pulse

Prompt #42: stars

Prompt #44: a moment of silence

Prompt #47: missing
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