Is frustrated

I feel like hitting something, just totally fucking my room up completely. It's a bit irrational but I can't help it.

This is the second week that I've been having sleeping issues. It was about two weeks ago that I stopped using my sunlight. The combination of the light and my new medication was doing so well for me. I slept all night and was actually getting up at a fairly decent time for someone that stays home all day.

But now that I haven't been using it, I sleep off and on all day. They only way to keep myself up is by moving around. I can't lay on the couch or I'll fall asleep. I can't even sit on the couch because I slump over and curl up against the arm and fall asleep. I bet if I laid on the floor to play with Buddy I'd fall asleep, that's how bad it is.

Sometimes I'll sleep all night and all day. Other times I'm up all night and sleep off and on all day. Like, I even fall asleep at 7 or 8 at night. It's horrible!

I'm so frustrated with the whole thing. And I feel so restless right now it's driving me crazy! I just want to go run around the block or something I feel so restless or like I could put a workout DVD in and put it on repeat for a few hours. Srsly.

Also I want to write and I have all these awesome prompts and i'm even in the middle of writing one but right now my mind's a blank. But maybe if I got my notebook in here and read what I've got so far, it may just spark something. And if it doesn't I can always look thru all my prompts to see if any of those could inspire me to write something new. Then I could move back on to the thing I feel I can't write today. And the thing is, it's original characters, like where did that come from?

Anyway I'm going to shut up now. Thanks for listening.

♥

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RE: last night's post

Okay. So this is an update to last night's little rant.

I finally did get to sleep, but I didn't write. I got up this morning and ate breakfast and everything. But while watching The Bonnie Hunt Show I fell asleep. Which really made me mad b/c a guy from Brothers & Sisters was going to be on and I don't know which character he plays. His real name was one I didn't recognize.

So just now I finally remembered, after realizing it was dark in the house & needing to turn on a light, that I should probably try to fix the sun lamp. By fix I mean plug it into another socket. We're pretty sure the socket it was plugged in to was messed up b/c no matter what lamp we plugged into it & no matter what light bulb we used in the lamp, they would always flicker and/or go out for a couple seconds to a minute. So I moved some stuff and got down on my hands and knees and moved the surge protector / power strip around so the sun lamp cord could reach it. Trust me, it was easier to move the power strip than to rearrange the lamp and all my knitting stuff.

I'm happy to say that the light is on and hasn't done any weird things. Now I'm going to sit under it and write and I'll let you know how it works.

On another note, I'd just like to say that I'm working on the prompt starting over.
Also, I'm using original characters.
Also, I'm thinking it'll be a short story rather than a drabble.
Also, we'll have to wait and see. lol

Writing Table Prompt #038: starting over

Title/Chapter: Starting Over (01/01)
Author: amanda: jaclyn's twin sister
Pairing: OFC / OMC
Rating: Light PG
P.O.V.: First person, OFC [emmie]
Author's Note: Although this is a short story / drabble (whatever you want to call it), it may actually end up being a series.
Warning: This story involves a relationship of an incestual nature. But I promise it's not what you think.
My Table
Summary: When I left my small hometown in New England and moved to New York, I thought I was starting over. Little did I know that the past would rear it's beautiful ugly face.


( PROMPT 038: starting over )

Random Twittering

• 23:00 @prettyzombiegrl I sees it toooo! #
• 23:08 Not asleep yet. Feeling restless. Maybe I should write or knit. I have lots of both to do. #
• 00:14 Still can't sleep #
• 00:50 It's almost two and I can't get to sleep. I feel wired. I want to write but I don't know if I can. I'm feeling very frustrated at the moment #
• 01:48 I'm thinking of knitting b/c I can't lay still long enough to fall asleep&my brain won't turn off yet won't let me write :P to the brain #
• 01:54 Or maybe I'll have some cheetoes
  Idk. I feel like crying I'm just so frustrated. Also feel like screaming #
• 02:14 @detectivekerry *hugsback* thanx #
• 02:15 I've decided to try to sleep. Cross ur fingers for me #
• 11:12 Today is Wednesday that means Dog The Bounty Hunter! Can't wait till 10! #
• 11:13 also, it's warmer outside than in the house. thinking of turning off the heat & opening a window or two. #
• 11:25 is going to try to write. needs to get some creative juices flowing. #
• 12:09 @chipcoffey if I didn't live so far away I would totally come! You need to come to New Hampshire. #
• 12:09 I moved the powerstrip around so I could plug the sunlamp into it. Hopefully this will help all my sleep issues. #
• 12:50 checking mom's email to see if laptop has been shipped #
• 13:00 my laptop has been shipped! my laptop has been shipped! my laptop has been shipped! *happydance* #
• 13:07 @knitfemme I twittered about that yesterday! My fave band is into helping Africa I posted a link to the article I saw on comcast.net 4 them #
• 13:12 @knitfemme Hanson (@hansonmusic) u can see all their Africa stuff at www.takethewalk.net #
• 13:14 okay, its almost 60º out. i'm opening a window! #
• 14:16 I think Buddy likes the open window but when cars drive by it scares him. #
• 16:15 just finished posting new short fic. Prompt #038: starting over: writefiction.livejournal.com/145971.html #
• 20:40 wifi sucks tonight.
  also, brownie batter. mmmmmmm #

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