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[writefiction]

I've had a couple of awful days. I feel sick as all hell, all I can do is sleep and my kidney is hurting again. My sister has her AIM status as some people shouldn't cut their hair so short because it makes them look like a man wicked baaaaaaad :) just sayin. I'd like to know how she knows I even cut my hair. She's probably trolling my myspace cuz that's not private and my facebook is.

Anyway. Last night Adam Lambert performed on American Idol. It wasn't my favorite performance of Whataya Want From Me but it still brought a tear to my eye. That song means more to me than anyone will ever understand. Not even Hanson has come out with a song that has touched me so deeply. But it really hurt when someone I thought was the kind of friend who wouldn't be so unkind as to say sorry, Amanda, but eeeeewwww! Adam Lambert! Gross! Its not that I care so much about her liking him or not. It's the fact that she thinks she "forewarned" me not to read her tweets about how she doesn't like him. I'm sorry but saying ew gross in an @reply to your friend is not a forewarning. It's a big fuck you in the face. So I kind of got made and replied with, you don't need to ruin it for me. This song is personal and means more to me than anything hanson has done in the last 13 years.

This morning I emailed her to apologize for freaking out on her. I also explained how much her words hurt me after such a personal song was performed. I even explained how much that song means to me. But she comes back with that she's not going to apologize because she didn't do anything wrong and he IS gross. She can have her own opinion and I'm just too sensitive.

Yeah, I'm sensitive, I can't help it. I'm allowed to have my own feelings and there's nothing wrong with them. It's what I do with them that matters. I said something not so nice and then apologized. Yet when I tell her that saying he was gross upset me, she says it AGAIN!!! WTF?! Srsly, she could just say that she doesn't like him and be done with it. Someone else said that they don't get the appeal and I didn't jump on her because of it because she was respectful of other peopel's feelings. And while this girl may not have known at first how upset I'd get, you would think she could hold back in her email from calling him gross again when she specifically knew this time that those words are upsetting to me.

Also has she even listened to any of his songs or read about how much he does for donorschoose.org? Maybe the only thing she bases her opinion on is his AMA performance, which is stupid because he's more than that. So much more. He's kind of fucking brilliant if you ask me. He's a legend in the making that I'm so grateful to be getting to witness. It's like Elvis all over again.

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[prettyzombiegrl.livejournal.com]

I'm really done with this Amanda. You really need to get over the fact that I don't like him. It gets on my nerves to see bad LJ entries written about me every time I hurt your feelings. I don't see the point in apologizing because it's my opinion get over it. It's cool you like him and he's your fave but I didn't consciously try to say he's gross twice on purpose to make you feel even worse. You def read to much into what I'm saying or I just don't make myself clear. Either way it's no good for us. I'm getting stressed out when nothing was my fault. Plus, I put an @ reply when I first said the comment saying "Sorry @flamingo_punk..." because I knew you did like him. I was apologizing in advance because ya know that's what SORRY means. I can only say so much in 140 characters. So, this is it. I can't deal with this craziness anymore. You're a great person Amanda, but I don't appreciate reading shitty things about myself in your LJ once a month.

[writefiction.livejournal.com]

Maybe I didn't make myself clear. I said that it's not about whether you like him or not. It's about what you said to me. When Corey Haims died I wouldn't have said to you, That's what he gets for being a druggie. No, I offered you my condolences because I knew how much you cared about the guy. And srsly, you could have at least apologized, not for your opinion, but for the fact that it hurt my feelings. And dude, when do I ever write bad things about you "every month" on my LJ? This is only the second time I've ever ranted about you the entire time I've known you! Maybe you're the one who's too sensitive. Either way, I don't fucking care.

P.S. this icon is just for you ;)