F.M.L.

Apr. 18th, 2010 07:31 pm
writefiction: (you bitch)
So my week hasn't been the best of weeks. First my half-sister makes fun of my new hair-cut on her AIM status and it's been up for, well, since I got the cut which is almost two weeks ago now. Then Monday I find out the person I'm falling for over the internet is actually married but doesn't give out that kind of personal information on the internet so ya know, I felt foolish. But we're cool, so it's okay :) Tuesday my kidney pain comes back. Tuesday night I feel sick to my stomach, which has stayed with me all this time; coming and going, just like the kidney pain. Then Wednesday/Thursday I get in a fight with... (well I'm just going to say it b/c she commented on the rant post and made it obvious who I was angry at....) [livejournal.com profile] prettyzombiegrl and she deletes me from everything, which, honestly, made me cry. Pretty sure I have Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder because the way I feel when I'm PMS'ing is so not normal. The last time I got in a fight with [livejournal.com profile] prettyzombiegrl was the week before my period, just like now. One of the signs that it's PMDD and not PMS is that the emotional symptoms affect your relationships with people. Well, hello!

So what happens next? Well, the tooth I had the surgery for last October gets a little wiggly this weekend. Like, I bite in to things and one side kind of pops out of place and I have to keep popping it back in. But it's so sensitive that just biting into bread would make it happen. Mom was a little freaked thinking that the surgery didn't work even though the doctor told us just in March that the bone had filled in nicely and what-not. So today I'm eating a bagel and every time I take a bite, I have to pop my tooth back in place. That is, until it BREAKS OFF. Srsly. Right up the middle. Now this is in one of my front top teeth so now I have this nice gap between my teeth and look like some hillbilly or something. Which I probably am a little bit, but not like this! So my mom's going to call the dentist as soon as they open tomorrow. I just hope that they'll put a cap on it and not have me go back to the surgeon and have it removed and have to get an implant. Cuz that would suck and is so much more costly and this is really something we don't need during the mist of buying a house and packing and whatever.

On a brighter side, I get to see the kidney specialist on Tuesday. Just two more days. I'm positively excited for this because maybe someone will finally be able to figure out this "kidney sand" crap and make it stop hurting permanently, ya know? That would be great. I'd finally be able to stop worrying that the pain will come back.... like it has in the past and has again now. I went, like, three or four weeks without pain and now it's back. Yay. *sarcasm*

So anyway, that's why this whole post is entitled FML. Basically anything that could go wrong, has gone wrong. So ya know, I'm waiting for something else to happen. Something worse. Maybe the kidney doctor will say I need my kidney removed or something. I don't know. I'm actually not all that opposed to having that done though if it meant I wouldn't hurt anymore. But whatever. This is my life at the moment. It's crazy and it sucks and there's only a little bit of good thrown in which isn't enough for me at the moment with the way the weather has been so rainy and affecting my emotional state.

Well, that's it. That's what's up. Not as bad as it could be, but feels like it couldn't get worse. I'm not sure there's much more I can take at this point. I'm just so exhausted, literally. I sleep all day and all night. It mostly sucks. But yeah.....
writefiction: (Zac Africa Cam)

I can't sleep so I thought I'd update this thing. I went to my regular dentist on Monday. He took another x-ray from a different angle. Then he filled my broken tooth. Seems it was broken exactly. It was a filling that fell out. And actually it was what was causing most of the pain in my face. Srsly. But now it's all filled and my mouth only hurts a little from the infection. I still have to go to the oral surgeon. But my regular dentist wants to keep me on the antibiotics until I can go see the surgeon. (insert eyeroll) so I'll be sleeping a lot for the next two weeks. But apparently I've already fucked up my sleeping schedule as it's 1:48am and I'm still awake. I am so pissed off at this.

I feel kind of restless, kind of bored. I don't like it. I want to write but I don't really have any inspiration/motivation to do so. I also want to keep practicing my chibi drawing but that would involve turning on the lappy to look at my drawing guides. I knew I should have just printed them out the other day when I was drawing. But noooo, I'm too lazy to do that, thinking, oh, I'll just do it next time. Blah.

Anyway, not much is going on here. All my dad's side of the family have facebooks so we're all going around friending each other. It's fun to find people your related to that you don't really know. All my brothers and sisters have facebooks now which is wicked fun. But only one of them won't friend any of them but me bc we grew up together so she only considers me her sister, not any of our other siblings. She's the odd one out. But whatever. I love my siblings and I miss them a lot.

Jaclyn & I almost went to buy me rats the other day. My mom didn't want me to get rats but I felt like it should be my decision, I'm an adult and I'd be the one taking care of them physically and financially. So I got the guts up to tell my mom a few hours before Jaci picked me up that that's what we were going to do. My mom told me that if I bought rats I better find a new place to stay. We talked it over and there is no compromising on the topic. The only compromise we could work out is that if I can hold off till we can buy our own place she'll consider getting me a little lap dog that I can cuddle with and take on walks and not have to leave at home if we go to visit famly. I've wanted that for years but my mom said we could only have a cat. Turns out my mom would prefer not to have any animals so if it wasn't for me we wouldn't even have Buddy. She twists her words around bc she knows I have a hard time remembering things. And whose going to believe the girl on psychiatric drugs over the mentally healthy mother?

I guess that's it for now. I'm getting sleepy. Maybe I should have a bowl of cereal that always helps.

Goodnight f-list.

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writefiction: (Kradam)

So my tooth has been killing me. Come to find out the infection I had last August is still here. It just won't go away even tho I had a rootcanal and a few doses of antibiotics. So last Monday I went to see Dr Moll and he checked the rootcanal and did an x-ray. Everything's fine — except for the infection. He gave me some antibiotics that have had me sleeping just about all day and all night for the past five days. But my mouth still hurts. I can still feel the pressure from the infection. Did I happen to mention that Dr Moll says I have to have oral surgery because of this? Yeah, that's right surgery. They have to lift the gum away from my tooth and clean the infection out, then stitch me back up. Did I also mention that I can't even get in for a consult until the 24th? Srsly. All I can do is sleep and take ibuprofen like it's candy. And it hurts to eat.

Basically, I'm a mess.

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I haven't posted much in a while except for my Twitter posts. I figured I'd update you on another aspect of my health. Wednesday I went to the dentist to have some fillings done. Of course we had to update the dentist on my blood pressure. We told him that it was really high that day, but it was after a 45 minute walk. But he got all concerned. Apparently there's adrenaline in the novacaine. Adrenaline (obviously) speeds up your heart and makes your blood pressure go up. So Dr. Aviza checked my blood pressure to see what it was at. It was 150 over something. He said that having it 140/90 is high enough to be bad so he decided to send me home.

I have to go back in May to get the fillings done. He said it was okay because they weren't bad ones and they could wait. Also, last year I had rootcanal done on my very front tooth; the nerve was completely dead. Lately I've been noticing a bump on my gums right above that tooth and it keeps getting bigger. So Dr. Aviza looked at it and declared that I have a left over infection that is in the bone of my jaw.

Apparently when they do the rootcanal they only clean out the rootcanal and it doesn't reach to the bone. So now my bone is growing around it and that's why it's hard there. He said as the infection leaves the bone will change with it. Also I don't have to have the rootcanal redone b/c everything looked good there. It's just in my jaw bone. So I have to take antibiotics. The cool thing about them is that they're flamingo pink. They're very cool looking. I'd take a picture and post it, but I don't want people to get the wrong impression. Lol

So anyway, that's my life right now. One more thing: my BP is really good when I take it as soon as I wake up. But I don't think that counts :/

Also I'm reading Breaking Dawn and holy crap! That's all I can really say about that. Plus I found a lot of my family on facebook. My brothers, niece, nephew and aunt. Altho I'm not friends with one of my brothers. But that's a long story.

Okay I think I'm really done now. Besides, the iPod is just about dead.

Love all. Hope it's as nice where you are as it is here =)

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678 is how many words I have written for the [profile] words_we_wroteTTA track challenge. At least 822 words to go.

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Diagnosed by a Doctor

So, I went to see Dr Levey yesterday (and I totally spelled his name wrong in the other post) He said I definitely need a root-canal. But he said that this one would be, like, 100x easier than the last one. The last one was so horrible b/c the infection was just completely out of control. The nerve in my tooth had died so I wasn't in any pain and didn't notice the infection until my gums and face were wicked swollen. And apparently, the same thing has happened this time: the nerve in my tooth is dead. Hence no pain.

Earlier in the year, after my first root-canal, I couldn't wear my nightguard b/c of my new crown. Then my front tooth, the one that's getting the root-canal, was soooo painful. The dentist said it was just b/c I was grinding so badly without my nightguard. So they made me a brand new one for free b/c I hadn't even had my old one for a year yet and those suckers are, like, 400$. Needless to say, my tooth stopped hurting once I got my new nightguard. Everyone thought it was hunky-dory. But now my mom and I are wondering if that wasn't b/c of grinding. Maybe that's when my tooth was infected for the first time. Usually the nerve in your tooth doesn't just die right off the bat like that unless there's some sort of trauma and Dr Levey doesn't think the fork did it. So now we wonder. Not that it matters any. It doesn't change anything. But Dr Levey said I don't have to have it done until I come back from vacation next week. I have an appointment scheduled for 9:45am on Thursday. Oh joy. But he guarantees it'll be so much better than the last time. Plus, b/c the infection's so small it's not going to be as much work so it's only going to cost us $840!!!! I'm so happy with that. But we'll have to see how much we gotta pay my regular dentist for the after-work.

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Self-Diagnosis

For years and years and years, showering has made me itchy. The warmer the water, the worse the itching. The other day I was in the shower and just as I was finishing up my shoulders and the top of my thighs started to itch something fierce. By the time I was all dried off and dressed, my forearms itched horribly too. I finally decided to jump on-line and try to look up my symptoms. Seems a ton of people have this problem and it's an actual medical issue. It's called Cholinergic Urticaria, a subcategory of physical urticaria. Basically, it's a skin rash brought on by a hypersensitive reaction to body heat. Symptoms can be brought on by anything that increases your body temp, i.e.: exercise, heat from the sun, saunas, hot showers, and even alcohol! All this time I thought some forms of alcohol made me itch b/c of the sulfites in it. And get this: it's more common in people who have other atopic conditions such as eczema and asthma, both of which I have. So basically the next time I go see my PCP I'm going to ask her about it. But it all makes total sense now. It's amazing.

Whenever my entire body itches and I'd tell my mom she'd tell me to take a shower b/c I was probably itching from sweat and dirt. I've always told my mom that showering doesn't help. And now we know it doesn't. Unless it's a shower of icecubes. This is kind of amazing actually. I'm not itching just a little bit and then essentially making mountains out of mole hills. It really is that bad. It's not just all in my head. Last night my mom was like, you have so many other problems, why not this too? haha But now it finally makes sense and it gives me some semblence of relief.
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My mom called about an hour ago to let me know I have an appointment with Dr Levi today @ 3:00pm. But we have to get there by 2:45pm to fill out paper work. So I need to, like, eat a sandwich and get in the shower ASAP. I'm not looking forward to this. But at least all they're going to do today is take an x-ray. And if I need a root-canal they'll schedule it for Thursday or Friday of next week. Way to spend the last days of vacation. I guess this means we're probably not going to the zoo to see the flock of flamingos. But at least we're still going to be able to go to Six Gun City and Clark's Trained Bears (also known as Clark's Trading Post)

Well, I am off to eat a fluffernutter and then shower.
Wish me luck.

xoxo,
amanda: jaclyn's twin sister
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Fuck. My mother is going to kill me. 

Yesterday I went to the dentist for my six month cleaning. I pointed out this issue I have with the spot on my gums just above my very front tooth. Back @ Memorial Day, I was at a cook-out and I stabbed myself above my front tooth with a plastic fork. (would have been funnier if it was a spork.) A week or so later I noticed this huge bubble-like thing on my gum where I had stabbed myself. I popped it and blood came out and then I rinsed with salt water. I rinsed like this until it went away. As soon as I stopped rinsing, it came back. So I did the whole drain it and then rinse thing. Every time I stop rinsing it comes back. Then it went from being a bubble to this, like, hanging flap of skin. It got so big that you could see it hanging down on my tooth when I smiled. But in the past week it's gotten small enough that you can only see it when I lift my lip up all the way.

After Bridget finished cleaning my teeth yesterday, Dr. Aviza checked it out. Bridget told him the story of what happened. Dr. Aviza thought that I probably just tore the tissue there and it had grown back weird like this. But he wanted to get an x-ray just in case. So they took the x-ray and then I left. Dr. Aviza was going to look at it and get back to me.

So just a few minutes ago, Roberta called. She said that Dr. Aviza looked at the x-ray and found a small absess at the root of the tooth that the weird gum-skin-flap-thing is over. He's refering me to the root-canal dr. He thinks that they need to do a root canal and Dr. Aviza will put a permanent filling on it....which is NOT the same as a crown and does not last forever like a crown. We went through this last time when I needed a root canal and my mom was kinda pissed and was like, You are NOT doing that. You ARE putting a crown on my daughter.

So basically I'm screwed b/c a root canal is, like, $1,200. I only have about $400 left on my dental insurance and that is getting used up next month on some cavities. So, yeah. I'm screwed. I really don't want my mom to come home from work b/c I really do not want to tell her. Yesterday we were scared b/c it sounded like all of this might happen and we don't really have the money for it. But I'd really rather have it done before my tooth starts hurting like a bitch. I've had 2 absessed teeth before. One hurt like a bitch. But the second one I had didn't b/c the nerve had died. I couldn't feel anything, so I didn't even know there was something wrong until the infection made my gums and my face swell up wicked badly.

Once again, I am SO screwed.

Just thought you should know.

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