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So this is floating around my friends page. At least two people have posted it so I figured I'd do it too.


The problem with LJ: we all think we are so close, but really, we know nothing about each other. So I want you to ask me something you think you should know about me. Something that should be obvious, but you have no idea about. Ask away. (or, you know, whatever you want to ask)

Then post this in your LJ and find out what people don't know about you.

And remember, NOTHING is taboo, absolutely nothing!

Ready... Set... Banana! Oh wait! I mean GO!

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So I had a call in check-up with the kidney doctor today. I called at about 9 but he was in with a patient so I had to wait for him to call me back.

Fast forward to about 10 minutes ago. He called back and asked how I was doing with my potassium-citrate pills and I told him not so good. I told him how I was able to swallow them a few times but Sunday of last week I just could not. I even had a really hard time getting it up or down after it got stuck. Also told him that we called the next day to let them know and we still hadn't received a prescription. He looked at my chart and told me someone had dropped the ball because there wasn't even a note in my chart stating I had even called! He might have been angry but you can never tell with him because he's so even keeled. But this mishap resulted in me not having meds for a week and a half, which obviously isn't good.

So he's calling me in a new prescription right now. Potassium-citrate comes in three forms. The huge-ass pills, liquid and crystal packs. He's giving me the crystal packs. They sound neat. They're like Crystal Light. You mix the packet in to a drink twice a day and drink. Easy peasy. Hopefully. lol.

So that's cool. But my mom was looking at the side affects of Yaz to see if it could cause depression because of the sudden change in my mood. Well, it doesn't but my mom found something interesting in the info she was reading. You aren't supposed to mix Yaz with the specific blood pressure pills I'm on. Ain't that just great? So I'm all wtf? Also Yaz can make your potassium go up and now I'm taking potassium so we've got to tqlk to my doctors about that. Too much potassium can cause heart attacks so... Yeah.

Anyway, that's my update. Now I must shower as Lene is coming today because she can't come Friday for whatever reason.

Hope your days are going well♥

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Srsly, this makes it a week straight of days that I've cried. I'm not even kidding you. A lot of it had to do with my mom. But yesterday I stayed up till 4am crying over someone that isn't worth crying over. Well, that's not exactly true. I mean, she is kind, funny, caring, lovable... Everything you could want in a friend... and everything I could want in a soul mate. Srsly, I've fallen in love over the past year with a woman over the internet. But when I finally got the courage to tell her this, she told me that she was married... To a man no less. Despite that we've remained good friends. We have this connection like I've never felt before with anyone...ever...in my life. She's everything I never knew I wanted... and everything I can't have. You see why she's not worth crying over?

Sometimes it hurts to be her friend and I just want to stop. But I don't know how to cut her out of my life. I'm not sure I even want to. It's confusing. One thing that kind of hurts is that she loves me, just not the way I do her. Sometimes I feel it's better than nothing, like I'll take whatever I can get bc I can't imagine life without her anymore. But there are other times when I feel like it's all or nothing. I want all or nothing, but it's definitely not that easy.

I woke up a little while ago and started thinking about her and for some reason I started crying. I've been so overly emotional lately. But the thing is, I feel like maybe, in a way, it's like we broke up after the conversation we had that kept me crying till 4 in the morning yesterday. It was the weirdest conversation ever. She's never talked to me the way she did that night. She said it's bc she can't talk like that in public forums to me aka if she did people would know I was in love with her. Yeah, that's right, she doesn't want anyone to know how I feel about her. Probably bc it might leak that she's married. Idk. But it's crazy, I'm in love with her and I don't even know her name. I only know the name she goes by on the internet.

What sucks is I feel like I give but she never does. Like, I tell her details about my life and when I ask about her day she only tells me if it was good or not. Nothing more. Idk maybe I'm getting sick of it, sick of the. Anonimitity bc all I want is to know her, like, really know her, as a person and not just the girl that writes fanfiction. I wanna know her fears and her dreams, hell! I just want to know her name! I want to know her birthday how old she is exactly. I want to know if she's sick of the way I feel about her. I don't think I'll ever know any of that. But if you're reading this and want to comment on this post... Well, you know my email address.

That's another thing. Half the time I'll write her an email or send her a DM and she won't answer. I'm on the verge of giving up. Which sounds weird since I have nothing to give up. Like, relationship wise, except for maybe a friendship. But that's not what I'm talking about. I'm on the verge of trying to put forth the energy of communicating in ways other than just when she pops up on Twitter.

I just... I've been alone for 10 years now and it's not that I can't be alone, I think I've proved that. But I've always dreamed of growing up and gettin married. That's been my dream since I can remember. I'm 25 and feel like it's time, it's time for me to be loved again. But I can never fall for the right person... obviously.

I can't remember what my original point to this post was. I guess I'm just rambling. And now its almost 20 of 5 and I should really be trying to go back to sleep.

Hope you all are having a better week than I am.

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So I've had an interesting day.

I spent most the day with Jaci. We went to Borders and hung out for hours then went to Dos Amigos Burritos on Main Street for some quesedias. By the time we finished I had to go home bc I managed to get an appointment at the clinic at 5:00pm. I didn't get to see my PCP bc she's on vacation but I did see a nurse practitioner who was pretty cool :)

I've been having pain in my right foot and both my knees since the last couple weeks of April. It wasn't too bad at first and it was constant. But over the months it got worse and worse to the point that when i get up in the morning I can barely move I'm in so much pain. It especially hurts going down the stairs which apparently is normal for what's wrong with me.

The gist of it is, is bc I have really flat feet I've developed tendinitis in both knees and my right foot. So now I have to go to physical therapy, take lots of ibuprofen, ice the affected areas and get rid of all my shoes! Basically I was told the only shoes I can wear from now on are Crocs and Dansko, which happen to be $100 on sale. So I already have 2 pairs of fake Crocs which are actually really comfortable and my feet/knees do hurt less when I wear them. But then Ma bought me a pair of real Crocs tonight and one of those button things. It's a pink cowgirl hat which is pretty cool xD

On the one hand this sucks so bad bc I just got, like, 3 new pairs of flip-flops which are apparently the absolute worst thing you can wear. Plus I got these awesome Converse that have 2 tongues and the one you fold down has cute little skulls on it. And now I'll be going to see Adam Lambert in my Crocs which will suck bc one of the girls I'm taking to one of the shows thinks Crocs are hideous. I think I may need to prepare myself to be made fun of :/

On the other hand this kind of rocks. I finally know what's wrong with me and how to fix it. Plus I get to go on a shoe shopping spree which is one of my favorite things to do xD

So yeah. That's my life in a nut shell right now. There's probably more that I'm forgetting. But when I remember I'll let you know. For now I'm off to sleep.

Sweet dreams, lovers♥

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Okay, so this has been building up in me for weeks now. But I'm finally allowed to shout it from the mountain tops. So where do I start? Right here on LiveJournal!

I guess this story should start last October/November. Back then my mom was searching for a house for us. Well, a condo or a townhouse really. And she finally found one. It was beyond perfect. It was owned by this couple that had recently gotten divorced and needed to sell the townhouse. The wife wanted to get as much money as she could and the husband just wanted out. So we made an offer and they didn't take it. Or we think it was the wife. But after they had gone to court, they came back and called us asking if we still wanted it. We made an offer and they accepted! Everything was great until the FHA loan didn't go through. The townhouse is in a complex that has apartments in it too. The ratio of owner-occupied and investment properties is what screwed it up. Because of the apartments there were too many investment properties in the complex to have the townhouse approved for an FHA loan. We were heart broken and we could never find a home we liked as much. We thought we were going to have to spend the rest of our life in this crappy apartment.

Well, cut to two weeks ago. Our real estate agent called us up the day before her vacation saying that the divorced couple's real estate agent had called her, informing her that there was a bank that was doing a first time home buyers deal and before calling, she had made sure that this townhouse would qualify. We were friggin ecstatic to say the least. Especially since the sellers had come down $3,100 in their sale price just to get people in, which they weren't getting anyone in the entire month that they had put it back on the market. All my mom had to do is take this first-time home buyers class (which she can take on line) and get certified. Because of my mom's job, she knows a lot of the information this class is covering. And because she's actually bought a home before. Legally she's a first-time home buyer because she hasn't owned a home in 12 years and the house she did buy she bought when I was, like, eight so that's seventeen years ago.

Anyway, that Friday we went to the townhouse and it was just the same: PERFECT. The sellers were willing to take just about any number at this point because the husband had since lost his job and they couldn't pay the mortgage. They were about to be foreclosed on. The townhouse was going to be auctioned off, but the husband got it postponed for forty-five days. The bank said they could have us closing in thirty. So in the end, we bought this townhouse for $6,000 LESS than what we had offered all those months ago! So, hello! Better deal!

The reason I've waited two weeks to say anything is because my mom said I couldn't post any of this on the internet until she told our landlords. So she told them last week. Now I get to post this wherever I want :D
In the end, we should be all moved in a few days before my mom's birthday, which is May 22nd. So happy birthday to Mommy! I'm all excited and can't wait to move. Plus, Blondie may be getting a bigger cage once we settle in. And Buddy is going to be able to run from the basement all the way up to the second floor! He's more than likely going to shed a few pounds, but that'd probably be good for him because the vet said he shouldn't get any bigger weight wise. He's at the max for his size of a cat. Although, I don't think he's done growing because his paws are just soooo big! And I also think he's grown in the past year that we've had him. So maybe he's not done.

Anyway, this is the most amazing news I've heard in a long while. I'm so happy and can't believe this is actually happening. And we have the lowest interest rate ever! Which is fixed for the first three years and then can be adjusted by one point and can never go higher than 8%. So that's awesome! Life is good, life is great.

Oh! Also, when we told my grandma about it, she said that she had been praying for a way for us to get this house. Seeing as she's a retired minister, I think she's got some sway with the Man Upstairs. So thank you to her for praying for us :)
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So Friday I finally got my test results back from the ultra sound. Apparently I have a kidney infection with a possible stone. I have to see a kidney specialist. The doctor I was seeing for this problem won't even start me on antibiotics or anything. I have to wait to get in to see the specialist before I can get treated. So ya know, I'll be in some serious pain until then. Great. Whatever. People suck.

That's really it. I don't know anything more than that. Srsly.
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So I interrupted my writing to write this journal post. I felt the need to make an update on life for a change.

So last week I had a horrible fight with [livejournal.com profile] prettyzombiegrl. It sucked hardcore and I was miserable, as I'm sure she was too. But we worked it out eventually and things are great now. I'm so glad because she's one of my bestest intraweb friends. It also shows how far I've come since I was a teenager. When I was a teen, if we'd had this fight, I probably would have told her to fuck off and never spoken to her again. So in a way, it was nice to have a big blow up and be able to work it out. It makes me feel more like an adult and I like that. Although, I wish I could have felt that way without having to have a fight like that. But it doesn't matter now cuz we're all good =D

And just when I'm starting to feel really good emotionally, I start to feel really bad physically. I've got kidney stones apparently. They hurt like you wouldn't believe! This morning when I woke up, my entire back hurt. I thought I was dying. Luckily I have percocets to help with that. Two years ago when I got them, it took me six days to pass them. So this started on Saturday... If it takes me as long as it did last time, I'll feel better by Friday. Now I can't wait for Friday to come around. lol. But I felt so bad yesterday I had to cancel my therapy appointment b/c sitting up for too long makes me hurt. It's like, laying down makes it settle so it doesn't hurt. Then when I sit up and start moving around, it makes the stones move around and hurt. So, like, showering sucks. Even sitting at my laptop sucks. But I've been sitting up since 11:30am and I'm not out of my mind with pain, just a tad bit sore, so I'm loving it :)

Last night I told my mom that I wanted to get guinea pigs this week. She said no because this week is soooo crazy, but maybe next week. I'm so excited although she says I can only get one piggie. Mom said she was reading something and that getting them in pairs only makes them live longer so she doesn't think it's necessary to get two. I'm okay with that. But I told her that with rats you HAVE to get at least two because rats become neurotic if they don't have at least one cage-mate. But we're not getting rats, so that doesn't really matter to us. I still need to do a little research on what types of fresh veggies they can eat. Guinea pigs, like us, don't produce their own vitamin c, they have to get it from supplements or the food they eat. On one website the woman's g-pigs wouldn't drink their water if she put vitamin c drops in it and I actually read somewhere that it doesn't work as well in their water anyway. Also, just getting one means I don't have to get another bigger cage. The one I have will work fine as long as I give the piggie plenty of out-of-cage time. Which is something I'm definitely looking forward too. And in the warm months I can take it outside.... as long as I get it a harness & leash (which you can get specifically for g-pigs) or a critter play-pen. Anyway, that's something I'm really looking forward to.

Another thing I've done is figured out what to do with my birthday money my grandma sent me. Lion Brand Yarn was having a sale on this knitting needle kit. You get straight AND circular needles in sizes 2 - 15. Plus you get 4 different length cables for your circular needles. And they all come in a travel case. It's usually $90 for the whole thing. But the sale price was only $59.95! Plus, because I live in the US of A I got FREE shipping!!!! You know how I love that free shipping. lol. Since my grandma gave me $25 for my birthday, that means this $90 case of needles really only cost me $34.95. Can you say BARGAIN? Also, two nights ago I ordered a t-shirt from the Chapbros because their store is going out of buisness on March 11th. They said they don't have enough time to run it the way they'd like it to be run. So for a little less than $40 (including shipping) I got a black t-shirt that has "LBC" going down the side and on the back it sez "I've Got Your Back" and there's a picture of Leland B. Chapman.... As in Leland from Dog the Bounty Hunter! I'm so excited! I can't wait for it to get here!

So emotionally I'm doing really well even though I feel so painful at times. But really, the pain only bugs me when it hurts wicked bad and I'm trying to sleep and can't get comfortable. That's when I dig out the heavy duty pain killers. lol. All in all life is good right now. I'm having fun writing and I'm knitting a hat for charity, major karma points there :) And of course I love knitting so I'm killing two birds with one stone: doing something I love while making something for someone that needs something. Ya know? And I love the mental health providers I'm working with. Lene and Sheila are great! I miss Marisa, but Sheila is pretty awesome. And Lene is so cool. It's funny because we kind of have the same personality, except she's not all anxious and depressed and what-not. She's got the good parts of me in her. It's cool because we make the same kind of jokes and she gets the whole being able to go to concerts thing even though just going shopping can cause an anxiety attack. She's the first one to completely get it. Others have gotten it, but not to the point that she does.

What I'm really trying to say is that life is great right now. I'm happy. I'm having a great time writing and knitting and sprinting with my [livejournal.com profile] hanficsprints girls. Life is good and I hope it lasts until the sun gets here because once the sun comes out, I'm WAY less depressed =D

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